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the end of 2006

2006-12-31T19:59:00.000+08:00

a tribute to all who hav come into part wif my life in 2006;

friends you make me happy,
bring sunshine to my life.
a light of hope you always are,
standing by me near and far.
lending me your shoulders,
when i need to cry.
you're part of my life, friend,
forever in my heart.

you're part of my life, friend,
forever in my heart.

many thanks.

this will be the end of this blog. it'll remain as a reference for myself in the future about my year in 2006. all whom hav linked me may wan to consider de-linking me. take care and God bless.

2006-12-17T01:57:00.000+08:00

i've moved.

mother fucker

2006-12-16T12:59:00.000+08:00

some bloody ppl juz loves to act..
now wana act dumb wif me..

ask her do the rest end up anyhow type some rubbish n throw it back to me n expect me to make it nice n presentable? fuck you okie.. lets juz fail fyp tgt den.. mother fucker.. expect me to do evryting for u? nah.. GO AND DIE.. fuck u man.. take it or leave it.. i cant be bothered anymore abt tis bloody report.. u wan use all kinds of funny language n leave all kinds of blanks for me to edit n complete den slowly wait ah.. maybe when the deadline is over i will make it nice nice n show u how it COULD have been..

MOTHER FUCKER.

2006-12-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

thanks for the chalet
thanks for the bbq
thanks for the true/dare aka true only
thanks for the memories

2006-12-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

i noe i'm in no position to say anyting, bud think wisely.

the last of the last

2006-12-06T23:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY

PEI QING WEI !!!!!

okie.. spent my whole afternn at nchs.. first rotted away some 2 hrs doing nth.. spent the nxt hr trying to study in the canteen.. did succeed to a certain extend.. lata on listen to commanding for sum 20 to 30 mins b4 rotting away at the wall n some stone table.. ended, rained. walked to cp. ate. tok kok (maybe can b considered as serious stuffs) wif yc.. went lib.. went home..

while sitting at the wall there, saw a balloon float up the sky.. in the end couldnt c wad happened to it or where it went.. it juz kept gg up.. anw, i realised sumting.. when u've let go of the balloon, its gone.. it'll float up, drift away, nvr to return.. same wif tings in life.. u let go, tats it.. it'll no longer be the same.. tings happen, tings change.. end of the day, its no longer the same.. maybe its time to let myself noe how different it is now. ........

tis will be my last post.. no longer gg to care abt tis blog anymore after tis.. no more blog-closing-down-sale, no more end of yr summary or reflection.. no more.. time to go.. ppl who r interested in knowing wadeva i typed bud did not eva post, try hacking my account.. its all there, provided u noe my username n pass.. i'll giv clues, no worries.. both r 9 characters long.. 2 names, a year.. happy trying, n hopefully happy reading.. GOODBYE EVERYONE.

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2006-12-05T22:19:00.000+08:00

ah man... y did i go click tat?? fcking frenster.
fck sia.. now totally no mood to do anyting... ARGHHH..
fck sia.. dumb dumb dumb...

com screwed.
life screwed.
everything's screwed!!!
FCK.

SCREWED.

I WANT OUT!!!

FUCK.

thru the back door.

2006-11-25T20:12:00.000+08:00

(for those with not so good eyesight)
alrite ppl, cya all on 31st dec. goodbye.

yuan lai zui gu dan de shi wo hai shi na me xiang ni
yuan lai zui bei ai de shi wo bu neng mian dui zi ji

xiang yao dui ni shuo de bu gan shuo de ai
hui bu hui you ren ke yi ming bai
.....
wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wang ji ni
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
xiang zhe na yi tian hui you ren dai ti
rang wo bu zai xiang nian ni
wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wei wei xiao
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
you xiang le yi bian ni wen rou de lian
zai wo wang ji zhi qian

yc - no hard feelings. wad happened was wad deserved to happen. n ur thanks was enuf, i hav much more to thank u for for me being wad i m today.

once again i'm back here editing tis post. heh.. seriously i dunoe wad u'r tinking..
i dunoe who u r refering to.. how i hope its me.. n how disgraceful will it be if i'm wrong.. HAHA.
now u noe y manU-chel was the last match?? n i guess its probably God's will tat i would not win even a single cent frm my bets n let me hav another chance of contacting u.. nah.. not God's will.. it was my decision to stop smsing u.. seriously i'm in a state of S&S. spear n shield. mao tun. at the very end of the day, i hope u will not let me regret my decision.. live well, stay happy, win best commander n keep smiling k.. hahaha.. if fate has it, may we meet once more. itily.

2006-11-21T23:55:00.000+08:00

alrite, tis post has served its purpose. done.

the last.

2006-11-21T23:49:00.000+08:00

为什么结果还是一样？
我想这也是最好的结果吧。
我虽然失败过一次，
但还是会再试多一次。
我会尽力把你的笑容给忘了，
可是这需要时间。
在我还没完全忘掉你前，
我可能会忘了我该忘了你，
所以我需要你来提醒我。
我想四年的差距在这一刻是太多了，
也知道我们也不很谈的来，
所以我想我们在一起是很难的。
他们说长痛不如短痛，
所以希望在我还没爱上你之间，
我会懂得如合忘了你那灿烂的笑容。
算了，该结束的始终还是会结束。
你要好好的过，
不要忘了怎么笑。
因为你的笑，
能够带给大家更多的笑容。

I Have A Dream

2006-11-20T22:01:00.000+08:00

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope, with anything
If you see the wonder, of a fairytale
You can take the future, even if you fail
I believe in angels, something good in everything I see
I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream

Oh yeah
I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through, reality
And my destination, makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness, still another mile
I believe in angels, something good in everything I see
I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope, with anything
If you see the wonder, of a fairytale
You can take the future, even if you fail
I believe in angels, something good in everything I see
I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream

I'll cross the stream
I have a dream

Because You Loved Me

2006-11-20T21:43:00.000+08:00

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

Shi Jie Mo Ri | End of the World

2006-11-20T21:27:00.000+08:00

xiang xiao lai wei zhuang diao xia de yan lei
Want to laugh to disguise the tears that's flowing

dian dian tou cheng ren zi ji hui pa hei
Nod my head to admit that I'm afraid of the dark

wo zhi qiu neng jie yi dian de shi jian lai pei
I only wish that you can spare some time for me

ni que lian tong qing dou bu gei
But you don't even give me the slightest sympathy

xiang ku lai shi tan zi ji ma bi le mei
Want to cry to see if I'm dead without emotion yet

quan shi jie hao xiang zhi you wo pi bei
It's like in the whole world I'm the only one who's exhausted

wu suo wei fan zheng nan guo jiu fu yan zou yi hui
Doesn't matter, because even if I'm down I can ignore my senses and just get it over and done with

dan yuan jue wang he wu nai yuan zou gao fei
Just wish that desperation will go away

tian hui hui hui bu hui
The sky is gray

rang wo wang le ni shi shui
Will it make me forget who you are?

ye yue hei meng wei bei nan zhui nan hui wei
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, hard to remember and ponder about them

wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui ye xu shi yu yuan wei
My world is just about to be destroyed, maybe fate is against will

lei bu lei shui bu shui dan ying wu ren xiang yi wei
Tired or not, want to sleep? Alone and nobody to pair up and snuggle with

ye yue hei meng wei bei you shui ken an wei
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, who is there to comfort me?

wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui
My world is about to be destroyed

ye xu tui fei ye shi...
Maybe being blue is...

xiang ku lai shi tan zi ji ma bi le mei
Want to cry to see if I'm dead with out emotion yet

quan shi jie hao xiang zhi you wo pi bei
It's like in the whole world I'm the only one who's exhausted

wu suo wu suo wei fan zheng nan guo jiu fu yan zou yi hui
Doesn't matter, because even if I'm down I can ignore my senses and just get it over and done with

dan yuan jue wang he wu nai yuan zou gao fei
Just wish that desperation will go away

tian hui hui hui bu hui
The sky is gray

rang wo wang le ni shi shui
Will it make me forget who you are?

ye yue hei meng wei bei nan zhui nan hui wei
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, hard to remember and ponder about them

wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui ye xu shi yu yuan wei
My world is just about to be destroyed, maybe fate is against will

lei bu lei shui bu shui dan ying wu reng xiang yi wei
Tired or not, want to sleep? Alone and nobody to pair up and snuggle with

ye yue hei meng wei bei nan zhui nan hui wei
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, who is there to comfort me?

wo de shi jie jiang be cui hui
My world is about to be destroyed

ye xu tui fei ye shi ~ ling yi zhong mei
Maybe being blue is ~ another sort of beauty

Hei Se Yo Mo | Black Humor

2006-11-20T21:13:00.000+08:00

nan guo
Feeling miserable

shi yin wei men le hen jiu
It's because I've been depressed for too long

shi yin wei xiang le tai duo
It's because I've thought too much

shi xin li qi le zuo yong
It's a psychological effect from the heart

ni shuo / ku xiao chang chang pei zhe ni
You say that forced smile is always around you

zai yi qi you dian mian qiang
We're only reluctantly being together

gai bu gai xian zai xiu le wo
Should you just leave me right now?

*bu xiang tai duo
*Shouldn't think too much

wo xiang yi ding shi wo
I think it's definitely me

ting cuo nong cuo gao cuo
Who heard wrong and did it wrong

bai tuo / wo xiang shi ni de nao dai you wen ti
Please, I think it's the problem with your head

sui bian shuo shuo
Casually saying

qi shi wo zao yi jing cai tou kan tou bu xiang duo shuo
I've already guessed it and seen it, but don't want to say more

zhi shi wo pa yan lei cheng bu zhu
I'm just scared that I can't withhold my tears

bu dong / ni de hei se you mo
I don't understand your black humor

xiang tong / que you zai kao dao wo
I've thought it through, but you came and puzzled me again

shuo san / ni xiang hen jiu le ba
Splitting up, have you thought about it for long?

wo bu xiang chai chuan ni
I don't want to expose you

dang zuo / shi ni kai de wan xiao
I'll just treat it as a joke you made up

xiang tong / que you zai kao dao wo
I've thought it through, but you came and puzzled me again

shuo san / ni xiang hen jiu le ba
Splitting up, have you thought about it for long?

bai gei ni de hei se you mo
I've been defeated by your black humor

Repeat *

shuo san / ni xiang hen jiu le ba
Splitting up, have you thought about it for long?

wo de ren zhen bai gei hei se you mo
My seriousness has been defeated by your black humor

lots of silence

2006-11-20T01:28:00.000+08:00

its not looking good.. the dream last nite didnt help it at all.. hai.. seriously my brain n my heart (or wherever its coming from) is telling me different tings.. i look at my life n all i c is lots of evryday ting. its boring.. n the worst ting is i dun mind it!!! omg.. yea yea, i noe i'm a boring person.. ppl play soccer i play soccer.. play finished ppl go drink i go home.. y?? not coz i dun drink, i juz c no point gg to a place sitting down to drink alcohol.. ppl go club i go where? of coz at home.. pay so much to go in n jump arnd? nah not me.. ppl go ADD i go where?? of coz stay home.. y? coz i dun wish to put myself in a situation where i really wish i was sumwhere else coz i cant stand the amount of socialising i hav to do.. oh yea i do consider even being wif frens socialising.. coz it requires effort to prevent me frm offending others.. it takes energy.. i dun hav much of tat nowadys.. heh.. i dunoe. today is the end of wk8 of sch. there's 9 more wks to go?? i dunoe.. no longer interested in keeping count.. sch doesnt really pose much of a headache for me anymore, i dun really giv a damn anymore.. its jus the fyp tat sucks.. still hav to do the report.. wondering if i fck care the report cla will kp to woo anot.. i tink she will la.. hahaha.. fck sia.. if only she wont.. zzzzz... fcked up.. one fyp make me scold 3 fck.. really got problem alr.. hai... on a brighter note, its ending soon... 6 days more to be exact.. couldnt find wad i wan today.. hope can find by midwk if not i tink i will heck care alr.. hahhaa..

toking abt today, noon went vivo wif papa n meimei.. on train saw reagan.. he's fatter now.. other den tat tink he probably looks less chiongster alr.. hahhaa.. found out tat derren in army alr.. omg.. so fast.. den went vivo walk den went the boat tat is docked there for a book sale.. walk one rnd the ship come down alr.. den at vivo we only entered like 2 shops, addidas n nike.. hahhaa.. den after tat came home tat time go srgn cut hair.. no more hair again.. well, for those who tot i was keeping my hair long, i wasnt.. juz dint bothered to go cut it.. i guess red cross is the ting tat keeps me keep my life in place.. cutting of fingernails, hair etc.. if not for red cross, i'll probably look more like a barbarian den anyting else.. hahaha.. so cut hair finished went find my meimei the sunblock lotion.. den looked for my stones.. bud couldnt find.. den came home n rotted liao.. tml go sch for rubbish lessons den tue morning go do fyp (last rnd i tink) den lessons den home.. wed lessons in morning den afternn tink come home get ready for camp alr ba.. den must plan properly coz thur nite at yc hse fri go camp straight.. so only bringing very little tings for camp i hope.. hahaha. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... blah blah blah....

8 days till the end

2006-11-18T00:11:00.000+08:00

i guess u were rite, i m way too close to them. maybe i m indeed treating them more den wad i m tinking i'm treating them as.. bud i guess its good tat the end is near.. becoz today i juz realised totally tat when u r too near, u dun see alot of tings tat u will easily c when u r further back.. so i've started taking the steps backwards n it'll continue till Operation Bastard.. upon the completion of tat, my journey wil oso end.. wif tat, i leave u all wif tis song, Xin Gan Bao Bei frm Andy Lau.. hahhaa

when the world seems so dark

2006-11-16T18:32:00.000+08:00

tonite had lots of tots come to my mind while in sch..

sometimes i get so tired of evryting n i really juz wana shut myself away from the world.. so tired of all tat i see, all tat i live thru.. yet i noe i will not do tat, becoz of the tings tat i hav to do juz to get my life back on track when i've decided to open up again.. there's juz too many tings to do to get back my life.. bud i really tink it would be very nice if i could do just tat..

anway its really sad tat evry sch day i get reminded of the fact tat the days where the ten of us would occupy 2 rows of tables in class during lessons, stand arnd trying to decide which foodcourt to go for meals, going out after classes or ponning them altgt to go to west coast crc to play pool, booking the court n playing badminton, spending a flag day's morning at pearly's hse watching scary movie3/slping on the sofa.. u noe i really miss those days, when evryting was so nice.. now?? all i hav r lessons seated by myself paying full attention becoz i got nth else to do, walk out of class immediately after lessons n head straight for any foodcourt tat i feel lyk gg for lunch, having it within 15mins b4 leaving the foodcourt, walking arnd sch to either t11a 3rd floor toilet or the lib while waiting for the nxt lesson, go home straight after sch or go to the lab n do my fyp, spending my time on the train listening to my hp n basically waiting for my diploma to roll to my hse.. tats all i hav now.. how i miss year 1... hai....

maybe it is true? let it rest.

its 200...

2006-11-15T22:11:00.000+08:00

so fast 200 posts.. anw doubt it will reach 250.. hahaha.. k.. so today supposed to go sch for woo lesson frm 1 to 2 only.. bud since ytd kena fck by tat stomach so decided dun go beta.. den today wake up eat alr play fm.. den tinking wan go the meeting not.. den rain.. haha.. den after tat ask alina arnd 2 like tat their meeting how liao she say at point 5 out of 7, meaning gg to end.. so i tot no nid go alr.. den spent abt 30mins of a very low time at home.. dun wish to say wad went thru my mind during tat 30mins.. den after tat decided to go CP check my account n borrow books.. so went out.. den recieved sms frm alina den found out tat after so long their meeting haven end.. so reached CP go find them first.. juz nice reached there they end.. hahhaa.. den went to lib find books.. all those i wan find one all dun hav.. sengkang lib abit disappointing.. hahaa.. den in the end anyhow borrowed 2 books.. den went buy sushi to eat den went cold storage?? eh no.. went mac.. den after sum time came home.. tml 8am lesson... zzzz.. sitting alone again i tink.. hahha.. tink after sch doing fyp ba.. end up must wear shoes again... zzzz.. i'm trying to reduce the time of me wearing tat sports shoes coz there's about 6 corns/corn-to-be on my right leg alr.. n corns hurt... so yea.. hope they go missing soon or i'll juz cut them off till it bleeds.. hahaha..

i do evryting for a reason.. there's a reason y i left.. it wasnt easy to stop myself frm gg back down the escalator.. bud i noe i shldnt n thankfully i dint.. for the others, do not do more den u all shld.. sum tings r best left on its own, for nature to do its course.. if its meant to be it will be, no point rushing it.. in case u'r wondering, sumday i will take tat train wif u if given the chance.. sumday, not today..

pain

2006-11-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

okie i'm back feeling much beta den juz nw.. went to slp after posting juz now den nw back.. anw juz nw while i was under extreme pain frm my stomach, i tot abt the different types of pain.. physical n emotional to be general...

i certainly tink i can withstand emotional pain beta den physical pain.. i mean i was all ready to giv up all my money juz to stop feeling so pain juz nw.. bud of coz no1 was there to elevate my pain as well as take my money so i guess i dint.. bud at times physical pain really hurts.. bud emotional pain is the one tat lasts.. maybe i gues tats y ppl like to inflict physical pain on themselves so tat it overshadows their emotional pain, bud its all juz temporary.. physical pain will the most result in scar formation tat will only serve to remind them of the emotional pain they once had.. no point.. if got pain i would maybe hav done it, tat is provided i hav any emotional pain first.. hahhaa.. nah, i too cold blooded to be emotionally pained for long..

anyway, i feel like shit rite now.. very tired yet very free.. i c evryone like busy rushing their fyp report etc bud i m like gg to die when dec reaches.. ah... wait till reach den slowly die la.. hope i can finish wadeva rubbish tats due after dec b4 dec.. oh man.. pain starting to come back... shant stay much longer..

isit for the ending? or isit wad u really feel? i dunoe.. still counting down.. maybe if u ask me not to, i wont. nah... tinking too much once again..

2006-11-14T20:22:00.000+08:00

P - A - I - N !!!!

VERY PAIN!!!!!!!!!

wth.. liverpool lost 3 nil.. zzz

2006-11-13T18:16:00.000+08:00

nah.. i'm not a Reds fan.. nor a Gunner fan.. bud IF (a VERY big IF) liverpool had led at halftime n arsenal catch back to draw by full time i'll be ALOT richer.. IF.......

yuching u once commented my posts r all similiar.. trying to hint here hint there.. its not i dun wana put it here.. its not appropriate to put it here nor tell anyone.. so i wont.. hahaha.. so bear wif more hintings if i do bother to..

anyway haven really decided if i shld publish tis post or juz save it till a later date den publish.. c how la.. currently got 60% chance i'll publish it.. hahhaa.. we shall c...

lets tok abt my SP password.. its 9 characters coz i initially wanted tat one 5 character nia.. which is not enuf.. so its now *****2006.. the * r NOT *.. i juz dun wan to reveal it.. hahaha.. bud y 2006.. yes coz its the current year.. n its oso the yr where tings will come to an end.. back in 2004 i had a ting about dead man walking.. it was basically when i "died" n no longer was the old me.. now at 2006, there r tings meant for me to end.. so yea.. wad will 2007 be like? i canot answer tis qns at the moment.. maybe my last post for tis blog i'll be able to answer tis more confidently. we shall c...

do u noe tat i usually reply sms as soon as i read them if i intend to? bud its different when its urs.. i dun.. sumtimes i dun even noe if i shld reply or shld i quickly put an end to the sms-ing.. coz i do not noe wad u'r tinking.. i do not noe wads happening over the other side.. hai.. nvm.. its juz another few more days till the end.. blah blah blah....

2006-11-12T14:53:00.000+08:00

lost of thoughts.. dunoe wad i wan say oso...

worst day of my life so far

2006-11-11T20:26:00.000+08:00

great.. one stomach flu can defeat me like tat.. dunoe how many donkey years nv go c doc.. den tis fcking shit damn bth.. hai... $38.. go in the doc there sit less den 2mins go out liao.. wth man.. zzzzzz.. no strength to type much.. bud really very sian.. ytd spent so much sms arranging today's tingy den end up at home slp.. afternn was supposed to go PS watch step up wif mw lt they all.. end up.... den now supposed to be at BH playing soccer.. end up they now 3 ppl there nia.. hahaha.. gone... nxt time organise more diff alr.. all sure blame me y no1 go today.. hahhaa.. coz all sms me i juz tell them go ask jeremy.. tat shit sure nv care one.. hahha.. gone la gone.. the pain tis morning still okie. reached home really like fck.. end up vomitted once n diarhhoea thrice.. den bth ask my meimei call my papa to tell him i wan c doc.. waited arnd 1hr 30mins den he reached home. in between tink i drifted in n out of consciousness ba.. hahhaa.. hai.. now must eat charcoal.. n 3 other type of medicine.. will eat sparingly.. can keep for nxt time.. hahhaa.. i guess yu ching is rite.. in times of emergency ppl will really do much beta den usual.. my meimei at home usually ask her do one small ting only oso ask me to get out of her room den today very fun.. keep ask her do tis do tat.. hahhaa.. the ting is, will they step up to it?? zzz... given wad i saw today, its gona take a huge leap up.. we shall c... argh... feel like shitting again.. bud after eating the medicine my stomach the muscles all paralysed alr.. wan squeeze out the shit oso cant.. aaaaaaaaaaaa..... tink shall go off soon. go back to slp.. thanks evryone for the concern.. bud concern doesnt ease my pain.. only doc the best.. hahahhaa..

thanks for the effort bud no thanks, its all gona end soon. do no more den u shld.

a different world

2006-11-10T18:25:00.000+08:00

i guess tats the place tat i came from.. hai.. guess 2006 will end on a low......
whole day infront of com.. eyes gg blind.. zzzz...

i nid strength, not tat i do not hav enuf, bud becoz i nid more. u aint me, u aint noe how i feel.

oh man

2006-11-10T01:08:00.000+08:00

argh... feel like vomitting.. hahaa. juz now evening went out find qw.. den went plaza eat dinner arnd 5 plus.. den go his hse there teach emaths till juz nw 11 plus.. all the way inbetween nv eat anyting.. den now come home got so many rubbish left for the bin to clear.. so ate spagetti, burger, you tiao, egg.. now is in a hyperglycaemic state (high blood glucose).. really nauesa... omg.. feeling rather slpy.. bud how to slp?? gone la.. lata maybe go downstair walk one rnd c will help anot.. hahaa.. tml got lots of tings to do.. today morning oso accomplished nth much.. zzzz.. wkend coming up, holz gg to end.. enjoyed nth, learnt nth.. wad an elearning week.. BLAH..

tis time round i guess i wont comit the same old mistake again.. no more putting my heart n soul into the preparations only for the event to be like shit.. i'll do the minimum, n hopefully we'll get to c a wonderful performance.. we shall c.. afterall, its all gona end sumday, so y not today? sixteen days - there was a time...

when nothing matters anymore

2006-11-09T01:35:00.000+08:00

there's 2 tings i wana blog about.. 1 is once again red cross.. 2 is about a show tat i watched juz now on arts central.. lets start wif 2, shall leave 1 for lata c i got mood anot to blog.. haha..

so the show tis episode was featuring abt making manipulations to the human body.. like tatoos, piercings, inserting tings underneath the skin n etc.. kinda gross, not tat i care.. bud the ting abt it is personally i'm against it.. i may even say i'm against piercing earholes for earrings n etc.. its not so much abt the pain tat may be involved or anyting, its more of going against nature for me.. i'm a great lover of nature.. i believe evryting happens for a reason.. there's a reason y we were born wif complete earlopes n as wad we r.. by piercing them or even dying our hair, i find tat its rather not-wad-we-were-meant-to-be.. i dun like the idea.. tats y i dun dye my hair or pierce my ears even thou i hav no sch rules to worry abt.. its a personal ting.. i like to live my life the way its supposed to be.. i do not smoke not becoz of tis reason, bud becoz i noe it harms my body n more imptly i noe tat if i do get started, its gona be very difficult for me to get myself out of it.. we r wad we tink we r.. there's no doubts abt tis statement.. yet sumtimes we arent even sure abt wad we r tinking.. i get the feeling i'm getting out of point bud yea.. tis is juz my tots..

rather tired.. the red cross tingy may get very long n i tink its best not to post it now.. probably will hav lots of typos n lots of tings will be edited away mentally coz i will be lazy to type tat much.. so maybe other time ba.. laaaaa..........................~~~~

seventeen days --> in the end, it doesnt even matter.

because you loved me

2006-11-08T00:39:00.000+08:00

pretty long day.. morning wake up bathe den go cp liao. ate bk den take mrt to beach road.. bought the uniform cover, i'm rather confident i could hav got it at $2.10 at the shop i stopped at coz tats the one zy introduced me like 5yrs ago?? hahaha.. anw, after tat walked to bugis.. den not bad la, wear shorts n slippers.. den at times carry a big red plastic bag.. more like i gg market.. hahaha.. bud nvm.. tats me.. i dun giv a damn to such tings.. hahaha.. den went eat mos.. eat liao went home.. took mrt to cp den go the skcc coz px wan pay her bill.. den take lrt home den online awhile den went out again.. go gym at arnd 7.. den 8 went jog for 2 rnds at stadium den take bus go srgn find zy liao.. den tabao dinner den go his hse eat.. toked.. frm 9 plus till 11.. den walked to opp the swimming pool to take bus.. hoping i wont miss the last bus.. actually contemplated to walk home, since wearing sports attire sumore.. bud tot of how tired i was, i din bring keys, etc (aka. excuses) so decided to take bus.. den reached home wanted to go do situps.. bud den saw got ppl there alr plus etc etc (aka. u noe wad) so came home.. blah blah.. tired.. gg slp soon..

soon it'll be over. 18 days till the end. end of story, end of dream, end of evryting. pls make it a happy ending, thank you all.

2006-11-07T17:42:00.000+08:00

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there's a reason for evryting

2006-11-05T23:44:00.000+08:00

wadeva i may choose to do, i do it for the best of evrybody.
hav no doubts abt my motive, for its evryone tat i tink for..
i dunoe if i will do wad i've decided to do, bud if i do, i'm sorry.
evryone tinks i'm jus saying it AGAIN, maybe i m, bud i dun tink i m..

for evry beginning, there's always an ending to look forth to.
maybe now is the time.

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2006-11-05T00:29:00.000+08:00

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time for update

2006-11-04T21:20:00.000+08:00

alrite.. ytd went sch in morning do fyp.. finish den had lessons.. den prac ended early.. n i tot it was gg to end at 6 plus.. anw i counted wrongly.. got 2 more pracs on fri after sch reopen.. which means i will hav to pon the last prac to go for the camp.. sheeshh... c how lor.. maybe try pon morning tat bioinfo lesson oso n make sure i present on either wed or thur.. haha.. c how la.. anw, by rite supposed to meet sec3s at cp.. bud since i so early so went nchs find them.. reached there joined alpha play captain ball for like 15 to 20 mins nia.. hahhaa.. den debrief n wait for them pack up.. chatted wif goldwin.. den went cp via 303 there.. coz wan do the route tingy.. den go cp eat n play chinese chess liao den left at arnd 9 to walk.. the actual plan was to leave by 730.. zzzz.. so walked till sheng siong there alr 10.. den got to tink of lots of tings to do on the way there, if not will probably be very boring.. den go there play abit more chinese chess den go home.. waited for hx bro come fetch her first den took cab.. dropped them off liao i reached home juz nice saw the finishing segment of survivor.. the part they show the voted out member toking to the camera.. hahaha.. wth.. nvm.. den bathed n online n slp...

today morning wake up do nad fyp tat ting.. till 1 den went cook n bath.. den eat liao go find qw they all.. frm 230 till 6 i leave liao.. tinking back on all my saturdays, i guess the saturdays now r spent more meaningfully.. pri sch the sat is always morning go soccer trng den go eat den go their hse play till evening den go home n tink of a lie.. hahhaa.. den sec sch is red cross till noon go eat den go yc hse.. oso till evening nite den go back n tink of another lie.. hahaha.. bud really teach qw n his frens if evry wk for 1yr i tink when i 25yrs old i no nid go brazil jungle alr.. my lungs alr kena cancer liao.. hahhaa.. whole afternn i keep sucking in cigarette smoke.. hahaa.. not tat i nv breath in b4.. bud now alr quite long time since my papa quit smoking.. so yea.. it no longer is as nice-smelling as it was.. hahhaa.. went buy epl den buy dinner n came home.. juz finished my blog the pic again.. tis time more pics le.. if u cant find ur pic inside, its probably we haven taken any photos b4 or those r not nice.. hahhaa.. nxt time make me take pic wif u k.. coz i seldom in the take-pic mood so nid ppl force one.. hahaa.. lata gg do more camp stuffs den dunoe do wad liao.. tml oso camp stuffs... den mon go do fyp afternn must go find qw they all again.. they tue chem.. den tue dunoe do wad.. hope mon can finish all the 60 pcrs den tue no nid go back.. den wed got the camp meeting.. den the rest dunoe how liao.. c how it goes...

anyway while walking frm nchs to cp ytd saw zy.. more like he saw me.. he call me so many times den i realised.. hahaha.. kinda shocked coz tot he was in malaysia.. den guess wad?? at nite while waiting for hx bro he saw us again.. tis time i nv c him la.. only juz now chatted wif him on msn den noe.. hahaha.. wth.. singapore proving to be super small.. hahaha.. anw his bday coming up.. yc if u gg the camp 2nd day break camp liao arrange go find him maybe eat dinner wif him n ml tgt k? tats if u gg the camp la.. if u not gg den find one wkend evening or nite meet him n ml eat liao i go ur hse or wad lor.. hahha.. let me noe how ba..

yet yet yet again, gg different directions.. heh heh.. i dunoe wad else to say.. i will try my best not to do wad i aint supposed to do k..

SMILE

wad u r to me

2006-11-02T18:14:00.000+08:00

had alot tat i wanted to blog about on the way home.. bud now all forget alr.. its always been tis case. hhaha.. anw, today morning really suay.. wake up abit late nia end up take same train as cla.. den at sengkang i saw her liao bud juz continue walking to the back.. den when reached outram she come n "ren" me.. kns.. end up oso so fake.. ala.. must be coz of the fyp tats y she like tat.. ha.. den break went eat wif them coz nid go find nas wif et after tat mah.. den eat finish i n et go lib there find nas giv him his 2 balls.. hahaaha.. no we din take his, we bought him 2 more.. lol... den last lesson is tcmd prac.. kns.. i go there sit there slp 1hr den go off liao.. hahaha.. tat cherie is really ass.. kena suck up until like tat.. heck her la.. tml gg early to do fyp.. den prac till 6 plus sia.. den gg cp eat den go walk to sheng siong wif dunoe who.. hahah.. now doing appimmune datasheet.. lata still must do cchemII one.. both tml due.. sian... lalalalala...

q: wad are ships made of?
a: trust. ie: frenship, relationship etc r all based on trust.

i judge my frenship wif my frens based on how comfortable i feel when arnd them... i used to feel very comfortable wif nas.. bud now after 1 sem plus of separation, the feeling is no longer the same.. i dun feel super comfortable even wif yuching or jeremy.. i dunoe y.. its juz like tat.. yet i felt so comfortable when i was wif u.. of coz now its no longer the same.. sumhow our frenship has changed.. perhaps u'r wondering juz wad do i c u as now.. i still c u as my fren.. no longer as close no doubt, bud u'r still up there wif nad, et n wx juz to name a few.. if tis ppl wan ask a favour frm me, i will help them.. same wif u.. if u ever nid someting frm me, juz let me noe.. it feels sad tat we r wad we r now.. i tot we were so alike in terms of tinking, etc.. yet i guess we will only remain as classmates + frens.. no good, no close, no nth.. juz frens.. oh well.. i dunoe abt u, bud u were indeed one of those tat i wouldnt mind knowing if i could choose who i would noe in poly.. same wif carol nas et n nad.. btw, i tink i've decided wad to giv u for ur present, would u wan it?

anway really appreciate my hp nowadays.. especially since its the only ting i hav to keep myself occupied while on the way to sch n back home, inbetween lessons, as well as while moving frm one place to another in sch.. at least i hav a reason not to c ppl tat i noe coz i wasnt paying attention.. at least i dun hav to tok rubbish wif ppl i hav nth to tok to.. oh well, it seems my charger is gg bonkers.. i can charge the whole nite n wake up its still 1 out of 3 bars nia..

pretty long post.. actually wanted to tok abt my 2006 new yr resolutions one.. bud nvm la.. so long liao.. maybe other day if i rmb den tok abt it.. hahaha.. gotta come up wif my 2007 ones soon.. hahhaa

early HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY NASIR!!!!!!

2006-11-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

tml's nasir's bday! anyway, nasir is one frenly guy... perhaps my best and closest fren in poly... really appreciated his presence especially in yr2 sem2... so juz now went to vivocity after lessons to look for tings to buy for him.. coz morning told et (his jie) den she once again forgot abt it like last yr.. hahhaa.. den suggested buying him a small soccer ball n write wishes on it.. den go toyrus coz i tink tats the only suitable shop for ppl my class to go to.. hahaha.. finally ended up gg to addidas to buy a size5 soccer ball for him.. den et bought a small ball.. she decorate tml i juz sign den both giv him.. lalala.. den gg to share wif wh carol cyn for another present oso.. hahaha.. i guess he deserves my efforts ba.. life in sp would hav been alot more diff without him..

den went cp for meeting.. rather long.. now i tink abt 30% of the proposal is okie.. gotta rush.. camp is in 3wks time?? or 4? dunoe.. hahhaa.. anyway tis will be the last camp for me ba.. at least i can say i get to work wif 4 batches of ncos.. wad more tis batch was juz sec1 when i juz joined the unit.. hope tis camp would be a success... really wan it to be so.. k la.. pretty much wasting my time online.. gg slp soon.. tml 8 o'clock lessons.. blah... byebye

SMILE

i saw her !!!.....

2006-10-30T18:47:00.000+08:00

.... so wad? so wad if i saw her? once again gg diff directions.. one goes left, the other goes right. one goes up, the other down. is tat how it will turn out to be?? tat i will only get to cherish the short moments tat our paths cross?? blah....!!! wadeva.. go play fm alr.. BYE

chen jun liang - er dong chen, ying jun you shan liang.

2006-10-29T23:49:00.000+08:00

okie.. tats the meaning of my name.. hehe.. obviously i doubt tats wad my parents intended.. bud tat's wad i'll accept as the meaning behind my name.. hahaha.. (btw, it kinda means handsome n kind)

kk.. blogging coz i wanted go offline n shit n slp bud bro bathing so nth to do.. hahaha.. today whole day at home.. afternn do abit of the datasheet den slack arnd play fm.. juz now watched the medallion den apprentice.. datasheet still left one qns.. the most long one.. the comments n recommendations.. damn sian.. anyway tml tink arnd 11 go sch do sum pcr den go lessons liao.. haven even read for ayeo's quiz.. tink i juz read wadeva notes i took b4 his quiz tml or on mrt ba.. hahaha.. blah blah.. gg liao.. bro's out.. bye ppl...

chest, turn n shoot!

2006-10-29T00:41:00.000+08:00

okie, not quite drogba-style.. bud still it was a nice goal.. hahhaa.. left evryone in shock.. all i can say is tat i din expect the chest to b so perfect tat i could hav a shot.. n the shot was juz sumting i din really anticipated.. juz saw it there n kick it in a way few would hav expected me to.. hahaha.. well.. at least i do feel i'm getting back some of my form.. as goalie oso less lobang liao.. haha..

yea.. the above paragraph was part of the game i had juz now.. frm 7.15 like tat played till 10.. tiring.. scored the above-described goal, forgot whether scored another.. den did well as a goalie i tink.. except still conceding goals frm those byline square-crosses n tap in.. gotta find a way to stop tat.. hahaha.. tink i failed to get any clean sheets in any match.. hahah.. oh well.. must improve my game play.. hahaha.. blah blah blah.. play so hard for wad?? i oso dunoe.. hoping sumone would walk past by accident?? hahaha.. lalala..

now i've a sore left knee n a very strained right groin.. my groin like evrytime oso injured.. hahaha.. got to stop doing funny stunts wif my style of kicking.. hahhaa.. tml nid to do the cchemII datasheet.. hope i can motivate myself enuf to finish it.. den tink afternn may hav to go smoking.. hahaha.. ppl who noe qw shld noe wad i mean.. tired... gg slp liao ba.. juz ate 933 golden pillow.. not tat bad.. heard is $10+ nia.. not bad la.. 3 to 4 ppl can eat quite full i tink.. n when i said 3 to 4 ppl, it means ppl wif normal appetitte, not me.. hahaha.. oh.. forgot abt my manU.. so hot for wad?! i betted total goals 1 goal n u scored 4 against bolton! hahaha.. nvm.. at least u won, nxt time dun so defiant k.. n tat zhao cai mao shld start reflecting on its prowess.. hahaha

kk.. lastly wishing all those taking their O lvls all the best, be it taking chi only or taking the full set.. for those in sec4 or 5, tis exam will sum up ur whole sec sch life, be it u flunked all the way or juz made it, tis exam doesnt take tat into account.. so prepare well, rest well b4 each paper n go for it! perhaps now abit late to motivate u all to study, bud do rmb to rest well.. GOOD LUCK!

new skin!

2006-10-28T12:30:00.000+08:00

okie... finally i'm done! phew~ so isit detailed enuff?? hahhaha

anyway, if u'r wondering y so familiar to yuching's blog, its coz i kope his skin.. changed the tings nia.. hahaha.. bud i do NOT like the green font.. hahaha.. anyhow noe of how to change to other colours?? blue would be good.. hahaha.. i shall try to get tat changed.. all in all, i'm satisfied wif wad i've come up wif.. feel free to kope my skin n edit, BUT do not use my picture.. hahaha.. go create ur own.. use mspowerpoint can make le.. hahaha.. tats bout all.. got to do datasheets liao.. if u wana critisize my skin, pls dun bother to.. hahaha.. if u wan praise it den another story alr.. hahhaha

180th post

2006-10-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

there r many tings tat i wana say. tat i wish i could tell u. bud, i'm telling myself i cant. coz its against my principles in life. so, all i can do is keep quiet n act as if nth is wrong. bud really, its tiring. .......

it wasnt totally unexpected.. well, at least now i do noe tat i no longer hav to "hold onto ur hands" since u've found someone.. i'm glad for u, seeing the changes in ur attitude. do not go back to where u once were k.. n i doubt we'll be as we were once, so take care.

so there it is, 2 paragraphs for 2 of the more "recent" ppl in my rather "outdated" life.. 180th post. tinking of starting the new blog prematurely.. bud gotta go find a nice skin first.. ~.. we c how la.. blah blah blah... lata 11 got survivor!! so shall use com till 11 nia.. tml nite playing soccer.. now got 7 ppl.. hope dun too little.. if not if no1 to play against sure damn sian.. sumore now keep raining.. *prays* hahaha

lack of slp

2006-10-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

k.. short update den go slp liao.. nowadays really lack of slp.. really shld stop gg ppl hse stay over.. once stay over the nxt few days will feel disorientated liao.. sad.. so today go sch finish go nchs.. actually not planning go one.. den got someone call me say she's "peiyi" den ask me tml got trng not.. den i tot is the sec3 peiyi so very shock y she dunoe.. so went down wanted to wake the sec3s up.. end up reached there they say all sec3s present.. ahhaha.. den i stunt... end up they say is sec2 the puah yee.. ala.. waste my time.. den go cp eat n teach qw abit of maths nia.. den come home liao.. very tired.. tml got to wake up at 7 sumore.. 9 must reach sch do the fyp den 10 nid do the cchemII datasheet wif ali, ec n cla.. sian.. lessons till 5 sumore.. hai...!! tired.. enuf liao la.. anw gg to do a new skin soon.. when i free n interested enuff.. gona make it plain simple n detailed.. for now, good nite to all!

tat was disappointing

2006-10-25T17:33:00.000+08:00

let's see, 7 weeks since. it had me wondering, do u all really noe the importance of wad u all r supposed to be doing? 4th batch since the beginning, many years of work in the pipeline, will tis be the beginning of the end? i believe no1 wishes it to be that. i'm not angry, i'm more disappointed n surprised den angry. i mean what's there to be angry about? maybe its nth much to u ppl, bud it may mean alot more to many others out there. i dun wish to be too obvious arnd here, for reasons i believe u all noe. so do not make me dedicate any more posts to u ppl. thank you.

Lin Jun Jie - Yuan Lai

2006-10-24T19:07:00.000+08:00

Jie deng ban zhu wo yan qian xia yi bu

La chang de ying zi chao long de hui gu

Dian hua ting reng liu zhe ni de hua

Yi ju hua diao yi di lei

Jin wan de wo hui shi ru he ru shui

*chorus*

Yuan lai zui teng tong de biao qing jing shi mei you qing xu

Yuan lai zui can ren de hua mian ke yi tian yan mi yu

Wo bu dong de ru he geng ai ni

Ying zi feng ci de gen zhe wo nan fen nan li

Yuan lai zui gu dan de shi wo hai shi na ma xiang ni

Yuan lai zui bei ai de shi wo bu neng mian dui zi ji

Ni shou de gan jing

Wo ye hui bu liu yi dian hen ji

*chorus*

Shuo gu shi ye yao xiang shi zhen di

Ke shi bie chu dong na xie hui yi

Jin ye ni shuo le zui hou yi ju

Yi ju hua diao yi di lei

Kan lai jin wan de wo hen nan ru shui

repeat *chorus*

for those tat din noe,

2006-10-24T17:54:00.000+08:00

i almost took up malay as my mother tongue in sec sch, only to be objected by my parents.. ahhaha.. coz i hated chinese back then n i was always wif malay frens frm the soccer team in pri sch.. maybe i would become a muslim in the future.. haha.. i dunoe, bud nevertheless, Hari Raya Puasa to all Muslims out there!

alrite, i'm tired rite now, bud i'm got to do the tcmd assignment n goh's assignment.. den still must study for lmbs quiz, bud most prob tml den study liao.. zzzz....

keep walking - Jonnie Walker
ala - Chun Leong
wo hen xiang ai ni

off to bed

2006-10-24T06:23:00.000+08:00

alrite, playing fm since juz now till now.. now gg to slp.. tink till 10 plus.. bud i'm still as confused.. hai.......

wads confusier den confused?

2006-10-24T01:16:00.000+08:00

great.. i tot i would go to bed feeling clearer last nite.. rite now i guess i will go to bed (if i do lata) feeling MUCH MUCH more confused... hai.. both in sch n outside sch, i'm so confused.. hai.. it could hav been left as it was, maybe i would be able to convinced myself to accept tat, bud it wasnt to be.. so how? i oso dunoe.. heh~... dunoe dunoe dunoe.....

lets tok abt wad i did today instead.. morning go out wif papa mama go srgn eat kway chap again.. at old hse there.. den papa drive to payalebar mrt i take to sch.. go do pcr den go lesson.. lessons end came yc hse.. play 3 4 matches den go eat.. came back play again.. den juz now he recreated his blog coz the prev one kok up.. den now he slping i playing FM07!!! as well as use the com.. yawns... tml tink wake up play till go eat lunch den go home liao.. got lots to do as well as thur got quiz.. hai... dun feel like haha-ing today coz i'm all confused n tired... zzz.z.z.z.z.. byebye

confused

2006-10-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

i woke up feeling confused.. guess i'll be gg to bed much clearer of the situation.

taught qw they all in late morning to evening.. went hougang stadium jog den go jere hse eat n watch manu liverpool.. now must hope reading draw or beat arsenal den win money.. haha.. tml gg yc hse after sch.. tue dunoe doing wad.. maybe gg out watch movie wif yc.. hai.. anyway, tis coming fri nite got SURVIVOR!!! hehe. okie. nth else.. feeling pretty down enuf alr.. HUR. bye

omg

2006-10-21T16:07:00.000+08:00

hai.. juz found out it will cost abt 5k for the air tix for my parents plus my meimei to go france nxt june.. hahhaa.. of coz they dunoe.. i tinking only.. june holz if clash wif my sis the summer vacation den let the 3 of them go coz since by then my bro n i shld be in army alr.. den ala.. 5k.. go where find.. work oso nid work alot of mths la.. sumore go there they oso nid spend $.. gone.. must start replanning again.. hahaha.. hav to ask my sis when her vacations n whether she coming back not.. if coming back den make it such tat they go ova for abt 1wk den come back wif my sis.. ala.. early stages of planning.. lets hope i dun forgot abt tis plan.. hahaha.. happy bday peiyi.. n u all shld stop buying so big the cakes.. hahaha

it all went wrong.

2006-10-21T09:23:00.000+08:00

when the moment u step into tat place, all u feel is sian-ness n redundant-ness, u juz noe its time to let go. no longer a sir, no longer part of it, gotta stop going. frm the moment i stepped in till i went home, seriously the mood disappeared. on a brighter note, FM06/07 is out!! seems really interesting.. hai.. 59.90.. gg to add tat to my wishlist.. hahaha.. its juz a wish, which like a dream, nv comes true.. hahaha.. so much for brighter note..

so i changed my skin.. actually wanted use same one as my meimei one.. bud saw tis n tot rather cute so used it.. hahaha.. its blue!! yellow was my fav colour in pri sch.. blue n orange were nxt in sec sch.. now? i hav no colour preference.. thou my msn font is pink.. hahaha..

had my blood drawn 3 times ytd.. our grp all kok.. total draw 5 or 6 times all no blood.. den woo take mine.. frm the inside vein! wah pain! blah.. sch sux..

today alot of paragraphings.. juz feel like being orderly n separate different tings.. ala.. sian.. lata dunoe gg cp find them not.. they gg celebrate peiyi bday.. it was supposed to be ytd.. tats y i went down.. end up changed to today.. wth.. c how la.. very sian alr..

thur, got to find out tat maybe i assumed wrongly.. bud wad can i do when all i hav is ur msn contact n ur frenster?? i do not hav ur blog.. i do not noe wad u tinking.. nvm.. maybe its too late now, no matter how we try we'll nv get back to be as close as b4.. u can still look for me if u nid help.. i wont turn u down.. not b4, not now, not in the future.. i guess tats all..

last but not least, there's a wall.. fine, i built it there.. hahaa.. bud i guess only u can break the wall.. n all i can do is stand at the other end of the wall n wait.. coz i will not do to others wad i dun wan others to do to me.. n so i shall make no move, say nth to u, n remain indifferent.. i hope u dun noe tat tis is for u, bud if u do, i hope u understand, i hav my reasons..

you think everyday Sunday ar?

2006-10-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

the above phrase is used on others who happened to do someting rite accidently n after which tries to do it the same way bud fails. originated frm myc again.. hahaha.

zhi dui ni suo
ai cuo
wo hen xiang ai ta
bai se feng che
xin yu
yuan lai
kiss goodbye

i noe i said no more, but...

2006-10-17T18:35:00.000+08:00

okie.. i noe there was supposed to b no more such tings, but.. ur sms surprised me more den shocked me.. n no, i wasnt threatening u.. i juz wan u to noe tat wadeva i said, was the truth.. trust takes time to build up bud is easily destroyed.. we were once the best of frens, or so i tot, n den u decided to do wadeva u did.. now u wan me to take ur word n quit sch, pay back tat 1k n come back nxt yr? n wad? find tat u didnt meant wad u said n u were juz testing? i would love to take ur words for it bud i hope u understand i hav my plans, my plans affect others, n by changing my plans, i nid more den juz tat few words to be sure.. if wadeva happened didnt happen, maybe i would hav not b tis wary, bud tings happens n circumstances changes. we arent wad we were once.. i dunoe even noe m i still ur fren or juz another classmate, tats y i sounded rather formal when smsing.. hai.. i nid to noe y, bud i noe u wont tell me, so there's no point in tinking too much abt tis whole matter. let's juz finish tis sem n c where we go beyond tat.. goodbye.

the more we walk, the further apart we become.

2006-10-17T00:34:00.000+08:00

i noe where i stand.
i noe where u stand.
the more we walk,
the further apart we become.
our lives lead to different ways.
how i wish it was otherwise,
yet there's nth i can do.
i hope to c the smile tat belonged on ur face to be there once more.
u noe i really do.

in love wif u

2006-10-15T20:13:00.000+08:00

alrite... very busy wkend.. fri play bball den sat went gym in morning... after tat go out to partyworld sing song.. wif lt yy jeremy rena den plus cf, mw, les n their gfs.. not bad.. 4hrs i sang 1 song nia.. hahaha.. okie dun luff.. coz i usually dun sing one.. my sing song career so far sang twice b4 nia.. once is xiao wei coz they forced me to.. den tat day is i very sian so go c got wad songs den chose yuan lai end up they make me sing it.. den whole mv i nv c only keep looking at the chi words coz dunoe how to read.. hahaha.. sad.. paid $15 sumore.. okie.. after tat went cine the foodcourt eat dinner den go balcony.. ordered ice mocha.. n my drink was the best among those we ordered.. hahaha.. sit there watch manu match.. very hot, no aircon.. den finished walked to dhoby ghaut take nel go jere hse.. den tat guy send lt n rena home first end up i go his hse alone first.. jokes.. den watched more epl den slp.. today wake up at 8 to go play soccer.. 2nd time eva tat we playing in morning.. hahaha.. not bad la.. end up alot of ppl there.. very crowded.. sumore very humid.. bud at least we played. bud majority of the time i only goalie.. very sian.. haha.. finished at 1230 go mac drink n tok abit den come home liao.. came home bath only den must go down teach qw weeleong n lei maths.. teached frm 3 till 7.. ass pain.. bud maths really makes me alive.. so alert when i teaching them.. haha.. now juz ate.. tink gg play fm till dunoe when den slp.. tml gg to go at 12 like tat do fyp ba.. lessons at 2.. till 5.. den must go jiawen hse.. die sia.. i dun even noe how to go.. n i tink i will forget i hav to go.. hahhaa.. tats all la.. happy bday to evryone who's bday is nowadays.. to list them, seng, cyn, carol, lt, jw, julian.. so many sia.. bud one ting very standard, all no presents.. ahhahaa.. tats all la.. go play fm liao..

once again tml is monday. once again i hav to come back to the realities tat i'm gg thru in sch evry wk. its so fcking depressing. hai. maybe tats the reason y nowadays my wkends r always rather packed as compared to last time. maybe i'm juz escaping frm wad is happening in sch. i cant stand it n it sucks. bud yet i cant do anyting abt it. no frens, no frens. GONE.

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2006-10-13T20:31:00.000+08:00

finally the poll reached 10.. haha.. juz realised 30 is actually quite high.. hahaha.. coz maybe the most oso 10 plus ppl come my blog nia.. so reached 15 den i will collate the results alr.. tink qw haven come n c yet.. if not he sure at my tagboard complain one.. hahha

so today woke up bath only den go out liao.. stil tot they will late tats y i slowly den sumore bring nail cutter wan go cut when waiting.. end up they reached b4 me.. hahaha.. last time 4 ppl today 6 ppl.. not bad la.. slowly improving.. hahha.. bud today played less den the prev time.. den sumore halfway the chester they all run out of sch play at the other court.. very hiong they all, pon sch den play at an area where the whole sch can c.. tink quite alot of the tchers saw them ba.. hahha.. play slack play slack den went ym hse help him do his internet tingy.. end up stil cant coz the com cant recognise his usb port den i dunoe how to install its driver so nv do.. den went cp eat.. eat alr go cold storage walk arnd.. den ova there jamie buy her lemon for dunoe y den walk one rnd den chaoed.. den go up the kiddy palace.. den saw the speaker toy.. actually is nice.. bud when lindar say she wan den i tot not nice alr.. hahaha.. no la, bud i tot the chipmons one was cute.. haha.. den she wanted the eeyore one.. bud nv buy coz she cant decide n no money.. den go up 4th floor saw chester again.. den went lib.. made jamie n lindar borrow the kite runner each.. u 2 the task is to write a book review by 3rd nov.. hahaha.. den kw went buy the speaker while we frm comic connection walk to lib.. i him n chester was outside comic connections den we came up wif a plan.. den i lend him money, den chester ask him he nid his speed not.. hahaha.. den end up we say he go toilet.. den tat lindar very interesting.. walking to lib tat time go the toilet there den say she wan look for him.. hahha.. bud she din found out till kw came back wif tat speaker.. haha.. they used my card borrowed 4 bks.. u all beta return on time.. i owe lib $1.80 alr.. hahaha.. den frm lib walk to go home liao.. oh.. forgot we played arcade b4 gg the kiddy palace.. the spot the diff screen got problem one sia.. hahhaa.. end up we keep press bud they minus the time.. total we spent $10 there.. mad ppl.. 10 bucks can do alot of other tings for a longer time u noe.. oh well.. it was a good day i guess.. firstly wan thank hx again for organising n oso coming.. u'r probably feeling rather unhappy bud hope the bball helped to a certain extent.. nxt is to alina, can c u oso neither here nor there, well, wad i would suggest is to concentrate on rc first la.. hahaha.. no la not so selfish.. lol.. bud oh well, u can always hav the option of using tis end of yr holz to perhaps find out wad it is tat u wan n make tat decision nxt yr.. afterall, ming tian (nian) hui gen hao.. hahaha.. nxt to kw, i really pity u tat u nxt time the house design.. haha.. one room library nvm.. another room is garden to plant veggies.. den still must giv one room to eeyores.. hahhaa.. work hard n earn more money ah..

so now still can roughly rmb i shall post the bets wif kw n qw here for all to be witness..

kw first, a total of 3 bets.
first, if ur chi get A1/A2, u will NO LONGER owe me the $50 tat u still owe me for ur june paper. bud if u fail to get A1/A2, u will owe me $50 nia.. i very kind nv count it as $100 so u beta dun xia suay.. haha
second, if u pass all ur subjects and get B4 or beta for english, i owe u $100.. bud if u fail to do so for even 1 subject, u will juz hav to owe me another $50.. hahhaa
lastly, if ur L1B4 get 15 or below, i will owe u $200.. bud if u fail to obtain it u will hav to owe me another $50..
so fair enuf? if so pls tag n say tat u agree.. hahahha.. nope, there's no fine prints to trick ur money..

qw is up nxt..
first, if u pass all ur subjects, i will owe u $100.. english no nid b4 la.. all pass can alr.. haha.. if u fail to do so u juz hav to owe me $40.. y lower den kw? coz his probability of not achieving higher..
second, if ur chi get A1/A2, u will no longer owe me tat $50 n instead i will owe u $50.. if nv get u will owe me $100.. hahhaa.. y he get $50 kw juz get to balance out? coz i believe tis might be the only one he has a chance of winning.. so must motivate him more.. hahaha..
lastly, for ur L1B4, let u hav till 23.. 23 nice number.. beckham number.. so if ur L1B4 get 23 or below, i will owe u $100.. bud if nv means u will owe me $60..
so urs shld be rather tempting eh.. hahhaa.. same as kw, let me noe if u agree on my tagboard.. n do go take a look at the polls abt u when u come the nxt time.. hahaha

tired. or rather, worn out.

2006-10-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

first ting.. ppl, after u click my hamtaro pic u will c a blue colour rectangular poll.. plus go ahead n poll it even if u dunoe who is qw.. juz choose either the first or second option will do.. hahaha.. now only got 5, i really sian diao.. hahaha.. most prob nxt time will change other poll qns.. bud let tis one reach 30 first la.. anw i alr came up wif the plan if majority chooses yes, so juz faster hit 30 n i'll inform him.. hahaha..

okie.. sch today was juz a repeat of 15mths ago.. nth much to say abt it.. it was juz anger, hot, hot, anger, anger, hot, hot, anger n .... so yea, sumhow i din blew up. bud i tink the message was pretty clear for all to read alr.. so yea.. fck it.. i'm sick n tired n worn out wif tis ting.. n guess wad? week 3 is juz about to end.. ~heh~

after sch did fyp ALONE.. oh well, i mean wad else were u all expecting?? sum ppl tinks its more impt learning how to write one's resume den wadeva she's gona hav on her transcript.. tml whole day no lessons best time for her to catch up n complete wadeva pcr tat i've done n she's not ran, guess wad?? she tinks its tiring to go to sch.. oh fck it u noe.. last time holz kip no results u demoralised sian dun wan go i nvm.. now leh?? kns.. dun blame me when evryting is not done on time.. i'm pretty much 35% off fyp alr..

so did fyp till 5 plus den went fc4 eat.. tat fcking china man, giv so little.. mite as well dun eat sia.. waste my money.. den took train dunoe where to go.. wanted to go ecp.. bud ala, so far away frm my hse den go home very mafan.. so end up choose between srgn n sengkang.. sengkang is really nth to walk one so went srgn.. reached srgn den found out srgn got no where to relax one.. so walk to st gabs.. walked one rnd arnd the sch, looking at the current structure of the buidlings.. trying to recall wadeva i could of wad it used to be, n oso tink of wadeva little memories i hav of the new surroundings.. walk finish nowhere to go so juz started to walk home.. den reach stadium there saw got floodlights on.. there was a soccer match so i went watch frm the carpark tat side first.. watched till half time i walked over to enter the stadium to sit down n watch.. anyway, it was not even a S league match.. probably juz a frenly between two groups of ppl who dun even noe each other.. hahaha.. bud well, had nth to do so watch lor.. afterall today's outing was canceled coz nas not free den carol's dad in hosp.. end up left we 3.. so change to other days.. apparently i'm supposed to wish carol's dad a speedy recovery at tis point coz tis is wad i've learnt frm observing wad ppl does at all kinds of situations.. bud deep down, yea, i do wish him all the best yea.. i 630 like tat walk st gabs.. den at stadium frm 7 sumting 8 like tat watched till 910 den leave.. hahaha.. took bus home coz rather late n tired liao.. den now hav to do the fcking fyp report so tat i can send to sum ass n she can edit n send it to woo.. seriously i believe its more of me editing her work den she editing mine.. sorry if i'm arrogant bud since sec1, i've been labeled as a proud person.. i noe myself, i cant n i wont accept critisms of me or my works unless its frm sumone i truthfully respect n recognise as sumone beta den me.. so yea, she's not even worth my respect so as to speak..

its no fun keeping all tis to myself.. how i wished i could let the whole class noe wad is happening n wad i noe n wad i feel.. bud i'm not becoz i'm simply not interested at all in having a war wif tat 2 pieces of shit publicly.. wad more involve the class n make them take sides, or maybe becoz i noe when they hav to take side, i'll probably hav no more den like 2 or 3 souls over wif me eh.. HAHA. tats for myself, jus laughing at myself becoz i noe i deserve it for being wad i m..

no more energy to go on, gotta go do tat fcking report as well.. still hav to slp n wake up early tml to play bball.. seriously i tink its gona b koked-up again.. oh well... gotta go, gotta keep walking, - Jonnie Walker.

somehow i'm back

2006-10-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

okie.. took tis frm yuching's blog..

Nothing will last forever, whereby No one is indispensable.
first point agreed. second point yet to understand. hahaha..

oh well, maybe its indeed time u start treasuring money u noe? eva since i've known u, i've very seldom c money being kept in the wallet rather den out of the wallet.. of coz i noe i contributed to alot of those gg out towards mr mcdonalds n his associates.. for tat i apologise.. u noe sumtimes i tink back to a particular nite at chuan park.. the nite tat i doubt u even knew tat it happened. i guess u snapped. u, well, went crazy.. it was probably when u were still in sec3, i've forgotten.. hai, i noe i've nv mentioned it to u b4.. coz i guess u probably didnt even knew u snapped.. i guess there comes a point where no matter how strong a person is to others, they cant take it anymore.. u r as human as anyone else on tis world.. u hav to learn to let it go u noe.. do wadeva u can still do b4 its too late.. u'r only 21, u hav many yrs more to go u noe.. if u cant find anyone who wans to listen to u grumble, tok to tat horse tat u bought frm ikea.. okie, not a very good idea.. bud u can always find anyone u feel comfortable toking to wif.. i believe u've had many more frens den i've had.. surely there's a handful tat u will be able to be at ease wif.. u noe tat if u'r eva feeling lonely n hav nth to do, u juz hav to call/sms me to fix a date n time n we can play winning eleven... if u wan to go sumwhere n hav noone to go wif, u can always ask me.. i'm much lonelier den u r u noe.. as much as ur dad was ur source of inspiration, u had been n will always be my source of motivation.. where's the yuching tat i knew of who would damn fcking care all about his appearance?? its time to find back wads been gone frm ur life. if its not now, when else will it be? take a break.. go off to some beach (i'll suggest ECP on a wkday) alone. look at the sea n tink back frm the day ur life broke apart, rite up till now. do wad u hav to do to get it back on track. if there's anybody in tis world tat can do it, it'll got to be u. for u r probably the most determined person i've eva come across in my life. do it for ur dad, ur mum, ur sis, urself, ur frens, ur many many juniors n cadets who looks up to u as thou u'r the god.. n rmb wad u've always taught me, "u wan to do it, u do it till the very best." u can! as long as u tink u can. therefore i here would like to wish u all the best in finding back wadeva u've lost. jiayou.

2006-10-10T20:36:00.000+08:00

argh....... sicked... will b missing for sum time.. bye!

morons part I

2006-10-09T20:18:00.000+08:00

tok abit abt wad happened today first.. juz now when walking frm t11a go t6 for lesson et n cla was toking abt the cls add.. den et ask me to go oso.. say last yr alr.. y dun go.. ala.. sorry bud if i wan go i obviously go wif ppl i considered my frens.. one table seat 10 ppl.. of tat 10 probably 8 gg to b u all the yr1 clique.. i go there fill up the seats for wad?? act cute isit? i nw in class keep sit wif them alr feel like retarded still wan make myself dress like retard (the theme is retro) n go there n be retard?? nah.. tats not me.. haha.. sumore 1 person $58.. tats 3 times retarded.. wad for.. spend my lovely nite at home rotting oso beta.. sooner or lata breaks they will oso ask me n cla to follow.. den once tat happen, sooner or lata i will go mia during breaks n hide in my fav toilet.. whole holz almost evryday go back sch do fyp oso got go shit in tat toilet.. hahhaa.. den juz now go lib print the ns tingy den go home.. well, at least i get to hav sum peace when gg home.. tml morning not meeting cla.. i gg early to do pcr first coz taq arrive alr.. she's a mf.. tink got alot of time.. i tml do liao den wed doing oso thur got time oso doing den she wan fri den run the gels... kns.. wed go where?? obviously go wif "her frens".. go do wad? go for retarded toks to get CCA points.. yuan lai her CCA points more impt den fyp grade.. icic.. enjoy urself ah.. fyp get C or D dun come complain abt my commitment.. holz u go here go there 1wk go missing i nv say anyting.. tat day u run gel i got no pcr to do i go off first only buay song.. now like tat sumore.. wan complain? fck u.. k la.. enuf.. gg to elaborate on my title..

tis ting abt morons i will try to tok abt it in my posts.. another series tingy.. hahaa.. gimmicks to keep my visitors coming.. hahhaa.. today's morons will be those who stand at the lrt platform at sengkang lrt station there.. stand where?? obviously stand at those "tart lor" (block way) places.. for those who noe how the west loop goes, after 3pm is u go up escalator turn left.. den u walk over to the platform to wait there.. will always hav lots of morons standing at the very behind of the yellow line.. tats to say almost on the yellow line.. den there will be others standing behind them.. end up the whole path is congested n evryone stuck at the escalator come up tat part.. bloody retards.. stand till so front for wad?? so tat they can enter the lrt first.. these morons.. if they pregnant/old/wif children i still can undstnd coz they wan get a seat in the train.. these bloody well-dressed collared-shirt ppl r in their thirties n fourties, look perfectly abled-bodied so wtf they rushing for seats for?? its not tat their lrt ride will take 30mins.. for east loop the max oso 10 to 15mins complete one rnd liao.. their legs weak till stand tat 10mins will die?? do they suffer frm acute standing disorder (stand awhile got problem)?? therefore i encourage all my readers who come across such morons nxt time to walk pass them n juz say out loud the word "moron" n look at them.. once evryone starts doing tis, we'll hav a much beta platform to walk on.. tats all for morons part I.. juz to make u ppl interested, morons part II may hav sumting to do wif Mr B**h n Mr B***r.. u noe? tat 2 big countries u noe who.. one retiring soon one.. gg to tok abt them n oso about how the world needs a little more goodwill to be a better place to live in.. n of coz i'll oso discuss y they deserve to be in prisons much more den those whom they've placed in there.. of coz tis is only possible if i dun forget abt wad i wan to say abt them la.. hahaha.. so stay tuned ppl..

anyway juz now on the way home i was tinking.. my checkup date is 27th dec.. den after tat cant be so fast go bmt wad.. sumore tis yr the jc is dragon batch so shld hav alot.. so most prob poly ppl will go in later.. so when my exams end in feb, i'll go find a part time job n work.. earn money.. hopefully in wadeva amount of time tat i hav till bmt i can earn (tat is after subtracting meals n transport) at least 2k.. den use tis money n find more frm siblings if not enuf to buy air tix for my parents to go france to look for my sis.. i guess they deserve tis trip since it has always been them for us frm young till now.. now tat i can earn money, i guess i shld start repaying them back.. afterall when i n my bro both in army the money we can giv them oso not alot.. thou they will save alot on electricity bills. hahaha.. bud ala, they r my parents.. n i believe tat family is the most impt ting in the world.. frens can be choosen, family cant.. frens lost alr can make new ones, family lost alr means foreva gone.. therefore no matter how distant i m frm my family, they will always be my priority.. of coz i must say i'm most fortunate to hav a pair of good parents.. i noe sum whom may not hav the most ideal parents.. i'm sorry tat i cant say wad i've said can be applied to them as well.. coz i do not undstnd wad it is to be in their situations.. bud nevertheless there'll nv b a lack of love in tis world for evryone.. u all juz hav to look harder than others i believe.. so anyone wana make any donations to the ALA fund to fund the air tix?? cash n credit donations r all accepted.. hahaha.. oh well, pretty much of tots in tis post alr.. anyone up for the alphaberts tingy?? hahaha.. STOP YAWNING!!! n the others STOP CHEERING!! juz pay attention n read wad i hav to say.. hahaha

kns.. there's a total of 19 'J's... ala.. spilt into 2 grps.. today do first 9/10.. hahaha.. other day den continue.. here goes:

Jaisilan - tis guy was my sec sch classmate for sec3 n 4.. very fit.. run very fast.. den soccer oso not bad.. his anticipation n workrate very high.. can be singapore's nxt subramani.. hahaha.. very nice guy.. asst head prefect sumore. hahaha.. sumtimes abit corrupted la.. lol.. very nice guy.. i like.. hahaha. juz kidding.. i aint gay.. haha

Jamie L** - nchsrcy junior.. very loud n noisy duck.. at times very hyper.. like to sia suay me in public.. hahah.. at times very emotional.. when she sec1 i go observe her batch during training she n lindar r the firsts to attract my attention.. not coz pretty, bud coz very noisy n to a certain extent, enthu.. hahaha.. over the years she's shown to be committed to the cca, probably the most?? bud definately not too good at handling of the pressures tat all ncos-to-be had to endure.. tats probably y she's not holding a very very high post.. of coz i had no hand in their postings.. bud if i was to decide, i would hav put her sumwhere higher, not becoz she's tat good n her peers arent, its juz tat i believe her commitment shld be rewarded.. coz when i was the best in my batch n the most commited in my batch when i was sec3, being told tat i would not get the highest post was definately not a very well-digested news to me.. of coz now tat i'm old n alr over it, i hav no qualms abt not being the chair.. bud i do noe tat for a fifteen yr old, tat might not be tat easy a pill to swallow..

Jasmine Y** - nope, its not the actress/dj.. its another nchsrcy junior.. hahaha.. anway she has a rather stubborn character.. or maybe stubborn is not an appropriate word.. bud cant tink of one now.. hahaha.. bud she has a rather deep hatred for ycs.. oh well, maybe its the way he works or sumting.. bud sumtimes its not rite for ncos to show their displeasure towards other instructors in front of ur cadets.. there r times i oso dun agree wif his style of working.. bud ting i'm certain is tat wadeva he chooses to do, i noe tat its for the best of the cadets.. tats his style, if its for the best of the cadets, nvm if others will not like him, he will do it.. so yea.. as u grow n if u remain in rcy u'll come to understand his point of view sumday..

Jean A** - was my gems classmate.. den she oso got go cls club den now is ben's gf.. did the gems project wif her colin n slyvia.. oh well.. i tink i got B or C for tat gems nia.. hahaha.. nth much..

Jeremy L** - the first of three jeremys.. hahhaa.. tis one is pri sch classmate.. p dunoe wad till p6.. he was my 'brother'.. coz both oso botak n rather fat (only since p5 for me).. hahaha.. den when we p6 both oso stayed back after sch to be the buddy for our own p1 siblings.. (u all noe of the buddy system??).. den their recess always together lor.. haha.. now oso lost contact liao.. long time nv c him alr.. hope he's not thinner than me now.. coz evryone i knew tat was fatter than me r now thinner den me.. *SOBS*.. hahaha..

Jeremy T** - tis one is sec sch classmate.. upper sec only.. den he is wif the breakdance ppl one.. scout de.. rather pleasant fellow.. nth much oso..

Jeremy W*** - tis is the one the name keep appearing one.. sec1 to sec4 classmate n good frens.. lower sec is the 4 heavenly kings den upper sec is f4.. both groups only i n him both hav.. hahaha.. basically sec 1 to sec 4 almost whole sch life wif him.. other den the times i go rc.. early morning go class copy hmwk till 7 sharp den go down canteen.. sumtimes got eat bud mostly is juz sit there tok kok wif the others den wait for the music to start playing.. tat music is a very nice music.. bud dunoe wad title so nv found.. anway, the cat living opposite my sch now still got the music not?? u find one wkday morning nv go sch one listen at 7.25 den let me noe k.. hahhaa.. back to our days at sec sch.. recess will go down buy the vegetarian stall beehoon most of the time den faster eat finish go play soccer liao.. after sch is play soccer either in sch when we still had field or go pl/bh to play.. pl is the plmgss there, at lorong ah su there.. now seldom go coz out of the way for sum of us.. den bh is the bradell heights cc.. beside the srgn police station nia.. still rmb tat when O levels prelims we 2 always in class chiong amaths paper of other schs den no matter wad lesson as long as we no interest one we juz chiong... den end up influenced alot of other ppl to chiong wif us.. hahaha.. mw frm c6 become b3 for prelims i tink.. den mengyeow failed his prelims amaths.. end up he join us chiong oso tink his actual one passed.. hahaha.. oh well.. those were the days.. n basically after maths exams come out if ur answer different frm jeremy's n mine means u got a 90% chance of wrong.. hahaha.. we were the answer scripts.. haha.. okie, tat was abit arrogant.. hahaha.. he in jc tat time drifted quite apart.. den now he in police evry wkend very free so go gym or play soccer.. den sometimes bet soccer tgt oso.. bud i've retired yet again (3rd time n counting).. hahaha.. probably the best fren i'v eva had.. best is not = to closest.. hahaha..

Jerry Y** - oh well.. tis will be the last for today.. damn long alr.. hahaha.. anway tis guy is frm my sec sch.. classmates only in upper sec chi lessons.. coz chi lessons they put us into diff classes acc to our scores.. den sec2 end my chi score was able to put me in the 2nd class.. hahaha.. bud i noe n i believe i was the worst in tat class la.. hahaha.. tis guy oso play soccer wif us one.. rmb we sec3 i tink chalet tat time play truth or dare.. den he said out quite alot of private tings.. hahaha.. nice bloke.. i guess tats all.. sayonara ppl..

Hong Mo Fang | Popular Imitation

2006-10-08T16:29:00.000+08:00

Qu : Zhou Jie Lun
Music: Jay Chou

Ci: Zhou Jie Lun
Lyrics: Jay Chou

Translation: Ling - www.jay-chou.net
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Zhong guo feng de ge qu you zeng wu jian
Chinese style music is increasing and not decreasing

Shi hao shi huai wen fang wen shan zui qing chu
Whether it's good or bad ask Vincent Fang, (he) knows it best

Cong niang zi chang dao shuang jie gun dong feng puo dao fa ru xue
Singing from Wife to Nunchucks East Wind Breaks to Hair Like Snow

Yi lu zou lai shi zhong ru yi duo yang de qu feng du ai zhong guo feng
Stayed the same the whole road down (In the) various types of musical styles (I) only like Chinese style

Wo jian chi feng ge wo huo zai wo de shi jie
I insist on my style I live in my world

Shui dou cha bu shang zui chang fan diao shi wo de ben xing
Nobody can say anything (about it) Being the devil's advocate is my true self

Chu qi bu yi shi wo de ge xing jiu suan wo zhan zai shan ding
(Being) unpredictable is my personality even if I stand at the top of the mountain

Ye zhi bu guo shi ge ping min lao bai xing
(I'm) just a normal civilian

Dan wo de jian bang hui you liang kuai kong di
But my shoulders will have two empty spots

Na jiu shi yong qi yu yi li wo yao zuo yin yue shang de huang di
That is courage and perseverance I want to be the emperor of music

Heng heng ha xi Heng heng ha xi
Heng heng ha xi Heng heng ha xi
Heng heng ha xi Heng heng ha xi
Heng heng ha xi Heng heng ha xi

Xia puo de lu bu fei gong fu bei ren yi jing bang ni pu lu
The path downhill requires no effort others have already paved the road for you

Dan wo xuan ze shang po yin wei wo qu ming jiao zi fu
But I choose (to go) uphill Because I name myself Self-confident

Qian xu han na xu wei jiu cha yi ge zi
There is only a one word difference between modesty and hypocrisy

You shi you dian fen bu qing yin wei wo xi huan zhen shi de zi ji
Sometimes I can't really tell the difference because I really like my true self

*
wo bu neng gou hou tui yin wei bu shi lu ye
I can't back up because I'm not a green leaf

Ru guo zhi shi dian zhui yuan dang jiao jie ming yue
If (I'm) just an extra ornament (I) wish to be the pure moon

Xiao cao deng dai feng chui bu yong kao ni de bei
The small grass is waiting for the wind to blow Don't need to lean on your back　

Jia ru tian hui hen hei wo hui qing chang e ben yue
If the sky will get really dark I will ask the Moon Lady to fly to the moon

Wei she me xie zhe shou ge wo xian zai hai zhao bu dao dong ji
Why did I write this song I still haven't found the reason

Bu guo yong xin ting xia qu ni hui jue de geng you yi yi
But listen carefully you will see the underlying meaning

Ru guo ni dui wei lai chan sheng kong ju yan qian wu meng meng yi pian
If you are afraid of the future and can't see clearly

Na shi yin wei ni mei ba yan jing gei ca gan jing
That's because you didn't clean your glasses well enough

Yong gan zou xia qu zhe shou ge hui pei ni qian jing
Continue moving on bravely This song will accompany you forward

Wo chang chang zai xiang yu zhou zhi you yi ke tai yang
I often think there is only one sun in the universe

Wei she me wo de ying zi zhe me duo zhe me xiang
Why do I have so many shadows that look alike

Zhan sheng huan xiang he wo yi yang xi huan mo fang de peng you men
Beat the mirage just like me friends that like to imitate

Chong bai shi jian hao shi xin shang shi zhong mei de
Idolization is a good thing Appreciation is a virtue

Dan zou zai wo hou mian wo hen dan xin bie ren hui kan bu jian ni
But walking behind me I'm really worried (that) others won't see you

Dao zui hou zhi shi yi ge jie yi ge de fen shen
At the very end, there are countless replicas

Zhe yang de gu li shi fou tai zhi jie tai feng ci
Is this type of encouragement too straightforward and too ironic?

Lao shi zai jiang dao di you mei you zai ting a
Are you listening when the teacher is talking?

Wo gao su ni zuo zi ji sheng yu gen tai jing
Let me tell you being yourself is better than following too close

Zui da de di ren jiu shi na nei xin de zi ji
The biggest enemy is your inner self

REPEAT*

ai you ai you o ai you ai you o o
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o o
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o o
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o hey
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o o
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o o
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o o
ai you ai you o ai you ai you o hey

Xin Yu | Heart's Rain

2006-10-08T16:18:00.000+08:00

Qu : Zhou Jie Lun
Music: Jay Chou

Ci: Fang Wen Shan
Lyrics: Vincent Fang

Translation: laruku - www.jay-chou.net
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Xiang shu de lv ye a bai se de zhu li ba
The green oak leaf and the white bamboo fence

Hao xiang gao su wo de ta zhe li xiang fu hua
I wish I could tell her how picturesque it is here

Qu nian de sheng dan ka jing zi li de hu zha
I look at the Christmas card last year and then at my stubble in the mirror

Hua mian kai shi mei you ta wo hai zai zhuang sha
She is fading from the picture yet I continue to feign ignorance

Shuo hao wei wo pao hua cha xue xi bai dao cha
She promised to make me tea and learn to set the table

Xue sheng su se kong dang dang de jia
But the students' hostel remains just an empty empty home

Shou zhe dian hua que deng bu dao ta*
The phone always by my side yet nary a call from her*

xin li de yu qing pen er xia Ye zhan bu shi ta de fa#
There's a rainstorm in my heart yet her hair will be forever dry#

Lei yun kai ming xin pian shang de qian gua Na shang xin yuan lai mei you shi cha
As tears smudge words of concern in the postcard I realize sorrow knows no difference in time

xin li de yu qing pen er xia Que shi zhong lin bu dao ta
There's a rainstorm in my heart yet the raindrops will never reach her

Han feng jing guo yuan zhi li de zhi ya Ye leng que le wo shou zhong de xian hua^
The cold wind passes by the garden and froze the flowers in my hands^

REPEAT * # ^

exhaustion

2006-10-08T11:33:00.000+08:00

okie.. copied the title frm nasir.. hahha.. bud yea i'm exhausted too.. lets c.. fri after sch go yc hse play winning eleven.. tat sucker.. lite spoil nv say earlier.. end up dark alr we wan on lite den he rmb.. hahaha.. end up cant fix so play in the dark.. den play till 1 plus he go slp alr.. sucker.. so end up i arnd 2 plus slp liao.. den morning 9 wake up den play awhile more go liao.. coz nid go home buy lunch for siblings.. den go JP eat wif yc.. den he go buy lots of rubbish to try DIY fix his lite.. den end up all nv use one la.. haha.. den he go cut hair i go home.. home bath n shit liao den go down teach qw n wl chemistry.. teach till 5 den go gym.. gym finish go bh play soccer.. full of activities.. soccer starting play goalie abit the sad.. coz hand nua after gym.. den vs all the fit ppl we lost.. haha. den darren n his frens come we go play the other court.. there beta.. coz i play outfield.. haha.. scored a hattrick okie.. lol.. den scored a header oso.. i tink is my first eva header goal.. den soccer finish go mac drink water den go find mama liao.. den came home bath slp.. den today nth to do.. tink lata doing the report.. den play fm.. den nth else liao.. hai.. tired.. tml is wk3.. another like 12wks of sch wk till the end.. how to tahan??!!

my life seems so busy now. yet i noe i'm missing something. n i noe wad i'm missing. i just dunoe who. hai.

Book Recommendation

2006-10-06T23:52:00.000+08:00

The Kite Runner, by Khaled Hosseini.

an accident waiting to happen

2006-10-05T17:52:00.000+08:00

hot ah hot.. fcking shit.. now is juz day 9 of tis fcked up sem.. how to last till exams?? seriouslly lacking in motivation to complete my diploma rite now.. getting worse..

almost lost it serveral times today.. its only a matter of time b4 i start shouting/whacking tat gay in class.. he beta learn how to shut his fcking mouth.. almost forget.. to evryone who noes whoeva i'm referring to when i use the terms "gay" n "slut", pls do note tat tis is my personal opionion thru tings tat i noe of n i feel of n oso its very the tainted.. so pls do not take every comment tat i make n tink its entirely the truth. of coz if u personally tink they oso deserve the term den good for evryone la.. bud if u dun there's no nid to tink of them as tat juz becoz of wad i say..

okie so lets continue.. toking abt his mouth juz now.. anyway i'm a person who really enjoys silence or peace.. bud tat doesnt mean i'm anti-NOISY PPL.. coz i'm perfectly fine wif wx even thou she's the noisiest in class.. bud sumhow last yr was HER, den now is SHIM (coz he's a gay), both happens to make really irritating/uncalled for/redundent noises at the most inappropriate times.. so yea.. bud the HER now alr okie la.. she dun come disturb me i wont care abt her.. the SHIM leh, nowadays like to gossip alot in class, on train, basically evrywhere.. continue gossip n whisper in class.. go on, when i shout at u to shut up u beta dun be too surprised.. like my title for tis post, its an accident waiting to happen.. now is only c when my limit is reached.. anyway.. now abt the slut.. i believe its once again very obvious to all tat she's starting to pave her way for re-entry into their clique.. its okie u noe.. coz if u dun do so b4 fyp presentation, after fyp presentation i will oso start ignoring u.. anyway wads so good abt sticking wif me now when all i do is giv a black face n participate in NO talk at all.. of coz wif tat gay u can tok, flirt, act together mah.. u wont feel so bored.. i oso noe tat u noe i'm unhappy wif u la.. u oso acting only.. i admit i oso acting wif tis slut la.. coz really there's not much i can do until tis fyp is over lor..

maybe its me la.. i hav social problems.. recently even forgotten how to keep a conversation gg.. tok less den 10 sentences wif ppl i'm okie wif i oso run out of tings to say.. even wif nasir oso.. hai.. gg become antisocial liao.. abit tired.. lets show the msn nic i using now.. bud gg to change soon.. tis one abit too offensive.. bud not tat i care, i juz wana use a more offensive one u c..

Leong - i'm sorry i'm not as shallow n as talkative as u r nor as GAY as u r. i'm really sorry. if u'r wondering if its u i'm talking about, u really nid to stop acting so GAY.

now let me go tink of the new nic den show u all oso..

Leong - pretty soon we'll c a slut n gay reunion. i'm sorry if u'r offended by tis comment, bud i din really expect u to tink of urself as a slut/gay.

okie.. i believe 90% cla will tink tat i'm talking abt her.. oh maybe i m.. hahha. bud well, i din put a name there.. so wadeva. i've had enuf of acting.. tis sem wont be acting wif ppl i dun need to act wif.. basically tats evryone except cla n the lecturers.. i mean how can dun act wif lecturers?? i wan my distinctions one k.. as for cla, wad to do?? lets juz wait for fyp to b ova n done wif..

hai.. so i guess my poly life isnt exactly the greatest eh.. yr 1 had 9 clique frens.. yr 2 go separate course den the remaining 9 oso spilt up.. now left wif wh carol cyn n nas, den pear n christina, den jx n dan is dunoe where one.. den jiarui gone elsewhere alr.. den yr 2 n 3 tis class, its sad.. of the many ppl, nadia wx et can considered my frens.. the rest r either neutral or DNT (do not touch).. hai.. go club oso.. the sports comm ppl only 5 to 6 frens.. den tat time join the captain ball wif wx they all end up kena den i mia frm club.. den ytd wanwei still tell me wx they lack of ppl ask me help them.. wad for?? when tats the cause of me gg mia.. hai.. maybe its really me tat has a problem.. bud i m juz no longer interested at smiling n laughing wif others FOR SHOW.. so now when i'm in sch.. if u c me black face looking at u, i probably aint very happy to c u.. if i smile or tok wif u, probably ur appearance has been appreciated..

okie back to slut n gay.. some of u who dunoe who i toking abt may wonder y i so dislike them.. well. the slut is the one last time i tell story one.. abt the married man one.. den now sumore she oso same pattern as the gay one.. wad pattern?? i'll elaborate more now.. the ting abt tis gay is tat he's seriously a fcking big actor.. act still nvm. act until so unprofessional.. talk n chitchat wif evryone in class.. luff at wadeva rubbish u throw him, y?? coz he wana be socialable.. kns.. all his tok n luffs r fake one la.. need ur help tat time will come n ask u tis ask u tat.. den dun nid den juz entertain u wif sum lame shit.. lets take a look at a case study to further understand wad i mean.. hahaha.. it involves the slut n the fyp la.. maybe i said b4.. bud the ting is wad?? he draws lines... lots of them.. frens n studies, must hav a clear line.. canot sacriface studies for frenship.. tat time deciding fyp grouping.. den he agreed to team wif another guy plus the slut.. den after tat start to regret.. den end up he go find slut the good fren ask her join them instead den dun wan do wif the slut.. y?? coz he scared she pull them down.. wad a nice fren.. den after tat the slut very angry etc etc.. now?? gg for reunion alr.. y?? coz the slut noes tat when i do fck care her, she lata end up no place go very malu.. so now faster act n b chummy frens wif the gay again.. maybe i'm petty.. it doesnt even concerns me.. yes i noe abt "forgive n forget".. bud i hav to say tat certain tings canot be forgiven nor forgotten.. tis kind of drawing lines n backstabbing frens tings r certainly one.. i certainly will nv wish to be associated wif tis kind of ppl as my frens..

oh well.. wadeva.. its one hell of alot of slander charges tat can b pressed against me juz for tis post.. the gay or the slut, if u'r interested in sueing me pls do so.. do juz go ahead n kill my future for me.. since in ur eyes, its always about urself.. go ahead.. i'm waiting.

quick update

2006-10-04T16:23:00.000+08:00

okie.. had a rather long day ytd.. after lessons end at 6 went dhoby ghaut opp the paradiz center there the mind cafe.. cyn n carol both working there den we went.. wh n nas oso got go.. den coz i end lessons late i ownself go.. den go there played board games n etc.. actually its not a bad business idea.. open a cafe den ppl sit arnd a table play alot of diff varieties of board games with their own frens den hungry can order food oso.. bud sit till the legs abit the sore.. hahhaa.. den i reached was 630.. played till 11 la.. hahha.. den i got one game got diff players.. den i kena purple colour one.. den after tat another game ducks one they gave me purple n called me they "gay duck".. very sad.. call their ah gong gay.. den they all is all mutants alr.. hahaha.. den ytd was ladies nite so we 3 guys each person $2 per hr.. 4.5hrs so is $9 each.. plus the set meal $14.. 23 bucks.. bud okie la.. coz the 2 gals paid $3 each for the "table" oso.. sumore no service charge coz they worker there mah.. den "discount".. haha.. came home after tat nv online.. den today go sch for a prac nia den come home liao.. the prac equals no prac.. so din bother to wear shoes.. tml got her followup oso gg to wear slippers.. den now cant do fyp coz taq polymerase ran out den nxt wk den coming so i dun nid do yet.. haha.. den juz now vaccum my room n wash the fans.. sweat alot.. now blog n lata bath finish den play fm.. nth liao.. nchs ppl study hard for ur EOY/N/O Levels.. good luck!

i tink i may hav an idea on wads the reason. anway, this will be the last time saying anything to u.. juz hope tat u will live ur life better than it was b4 all tis k.. if there's anyting u need my help feel free to ask me.. i will not close the door on u.. goodbye my fren.. take care.

random

2006-10-02T19:34:00.000+08:00

oh well.. noticed the prev font colour i used was rather eye-catching n nice.. so i tot maybe i'll use tat colour when i'm feeling very fine n happy. so nope.. not now.. haha..

anyway, m in sch rite now.. juz now after lessons didnt really like the prospects of gg home tgt wif mr gay so decided to juz lie n say i wasnt gg home juz yet.. well, i din really lie i guess.. coz i did never go home.. hahaha.. came lib did 2 assignments.. one due tml one due wed.. both done.. went fc3 to eat.. seriously until tis past holz did i noe fc3 got so many not tat bad food.. recently keep eating frm waffleton.. alot of fried stuffs.. gg sore throat soon.. anyway after eating came back lib.. coz 7pm the train alot of ppl la.. so wait till 8 den go back.. den did my fyp report the intro part.. completed it.. den now must edit clar's material n method.. abit the sad case.. other day den do or lata if at home play fm till sian.. hahaa.. luckily tml after lesson gg out no nid find excuse again.. gg to cyn n carol's work place tat cafe i tink.. to play board game n eat.. -_-... i go there is to show face one.. hahaha.. ala.. tats about all.. hard to blog.. surrounded by who noes who n they may be reading wad i'm typing.. hahaha.. bye..

frm an email

2006-10-02T00:58:00.000+08:00

sorts according to birthdates.. mine is as followed:

Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) -- looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

those in yellow indicates i agree.. others r debatable.. tag n leave a note if u'r interested in the email.. i'll fwd to u..

oh well...

2006-10-01T11:32:00.000+08:00

here juz to say about one ting.. wif regards to wad is happening between huiting, gladys, katie, weilin and to a certain extent alina, there's only one ting i will say. each n evry of u hav my belief n trust tat to a certain point u all r right in ur thinking.. i do not noe the whole story bud for me personally, i choose to believe evryone of u coz all of u r/were my cadets n all of u deserve my trust.. i hope to c tis solved bud i do understand oso tat even when it has been solved, there will still be cracks, just like how a broken cup can be glued together.. so all of u should juz cool down, n try to piece the pieces back together again, or if not, cool down n concentrate on ur exams first b4 attempting to do so k... all the best to the frenship tat u 4 once shared.. no1 wishes to c it the way it currently is..

back again

2006-09-29T22:44:00.000+08:00

so watched my sleague match.. very funny tat they showed till the 83rd min n stopped coz must show news.. hahah.. heng saf won by 2 clear goals.. sumore alot of ppl bought 4-2 scoreline lar.. hmm.. hahhaa.. back to settle wif jeremy abt tml's bet n oso do my cchemII prac.. sian.. lata hope i rmb to do the alphabert ting ba.. haha..

when evryting is looking down, look up n c nth bud plenty of space. y? tats coz one's been looking down for too long b4 one notices tat he/she's alr at the bottom of the well? tats y there's plenty of space up above..
if u wan me to accept tat our frenship has come to an end, i need a reason for me to accept tat fact. any reason will do, lie if u wan, bud i need one. thanks

i believe its H's turn.. so here goes..

HDB - opps.. bud yea.. its the housing board department no.. hahaha.. kinda forgotten y i hav it.. bud tink its linked to tat amk town council tingy.. hahaha

Hendric *** - sgss classmate for sec3 n 4.. he belongs to the breakdance group.. tis guy is quite the handsome one.. hahaha.. nccair de.. fit..

Hok *** - sgss classmate for dunoe how many years.. den abit quiet quiet type.. tink from hongkong one.. not sure.. hahaha..

Home - wad u wan me say abt tis? hahaha..

**** Seng - sp classmate.. terribly suay tat he oso live at sk.. hope dun hav to go home wif him tgt anymore.. seriously very gay.. n he told me once he dun like ppl to say him gay.. fcking gay shit.. anyway doubt i'll stand anymore of his shit tis sem.. tink he has an idea tat he isnt tat well-liked by me.. hahaha..

**** Wei - sp cls noe one.. he was in the medic committee wif me for the FO camp tat our batch held.. not bad.. bud nv clicked.. hahaha

**** Xi - nchsrcy junior.. the monkey.. small size oso.. live punggol.. tat time we walk her home den we kena tua by ourself.. tat stupid kw.. die die say is tat blk.. den she say is the nxt blk.. end up if nv rmb wrong is indeed the nxt blk.. hahaha.. ala.. apparently still childish.. not many years left for u to childish liao ah.. hahaha..

*** Fen - sp classmate. nth much.. quiet n keep to her clique.. only noe she at home watch alot of korea hongkong n dunoe where the dramas.. hahaha

*** Ping - fren i made frm long ago.. forgot is IRC or MSN chat.. hahhaa.. now oso nv keep in touch liao.. ages.. tink is sec 3 noe one.. hahha.. smart gal la.. frm dunman high one.. hahah

*** Ting - nchsrcy junior.. tis one is the gladys the twin.. hahaha.. live same blk.. specs same pattern.. cca same.. class same.. den tat time found out fathers oso work same company.. hahhaa.. still rmb tat time ask them climb wall end up yipchun hand slip den she hit her mouth to the wall.. ala.. sad.. den after tat she got kong ju of the wall alr.. hahaha.. very cheerful gal ba.. n smart as well as ting mama hua one.. haha

*** Ying - nchsrcy junior.. deb's batch de.. den i tink is those studious type one..

*** Yu - cls club sista.. danisco de.. den now in the other stage.. juz lent her my medmicro n histo txtbk.. hahhaa.. den rmb tat time our FO camp got one game is blindfold den evryone got one character name.. den must find their matching partners tat oso blindfolded n dispersed elsewhere.. den i kena Rose she kena Jack frm titanic.. hahhaa.. den found liao nid hold hands n move elsewhere.. den i hold the hand like the hand very big like guy hand.. den i ask her isit her.. she stand nxt to me n reply den the sound correct.. bud the hand really wrong.. hahah.. den found out is got one senior hold both our hands bud nv stand inbtw.. he squat behind us.. end up his hands bud we nxt to each other.. hahaha.. jokes...

Hwee *** - nchsrcy junior.. wah.. really alot of hui/hwee sia.. hahaha.. tis one is the certified cute one by me.. hahaha.. den last time still very on.. take over as ncos alr den start to mia alr.. den tat time keep wan borrow my AnP txtbk end up nv borrow coz nv arrange to pass her.. hahaa.. den he bf frm my sec sch one.. thou i dunoe him.. hahaha..

Isaac - the only I so i do oso.. cls club one.. he got a very nice body.. nice as in for females (minus the upper part).. hahhaa.. den those Shim contest always hav him.. our batch hold tat FO camp he was frm our rep.. hahaha.. won hands down.. lol.. he won the Mr SP title oso.. thou i believe not coz of his body la.. hahaha..

full time believer of science, part time believer of fate.

2006-09-29T18:50:00.000+08:00

since some half a yr or more ago i decided tat i'll believe in science to explain almost evryting tat happens in life n to a certain extend to believe in fate as to wad happens.. science i believe can explain alot about all the tings tat takes place n happens.. those tat science cant explain, probably means its still waiting for sumone to discover how to explain it.. hahaha.. as for fate, i guess its the ting tat makes us choose the side of the path tat we walk on.. two evenings ago i was walking home.. i was looking to my right at a playground seeing some kids playing den suddenly tis "coocoon" hanging by a spider web or wadeva appear near the front of my eyes.. i was walking on the left side of tat walkway.. had i been walking on the right, tat ting would hav juz smack rite into my face.. juz now while i was walking pass tat path again, it was no longer there.. probably smacked sumone else's face i guess.. n wad does tis mean? i guess its the person's fate to hav walked smack into tat ting n not mine.. there's no reason to explain y i chose to walk on the left.. i juz did.. bud as i continued tinking juz now, i tot of sumting rather absurd.. n tat is our daily life is juz an actual run of wadeva is supposed to take place.. suppose during our slp evrynite we will go thru the "rehearsals" of wad is to take place the nxt day n den when we wake up, we will go thru the whole act of the "rehearsals".. maybe tats y i was walking on the left of tat path.. n maybe tats y when we go without slp for a nite, we start getting confused n has a shorter attention span the nxt day.. it may be coz we dun noe wad we'r supposed to do n end up having to decide on alot of tings.. n maybe tats y when we dun slp for 2 nites in a row, we get worst.. hahhaa.. n maybe its coz of us drifting in n out of consicousness during our slp tat when we drift back in, we seem to c certain images bud we juz subconsciously junk it as part of our dream n forget abt it.. den when we happen to run thru tat particular scene again we get tat deja vu feeling.. oh well.. maybe i'm tinking too much.. hahaa.. nvm.. enuff of tis.. i'm gg off to watch the sleague match on CNA.. $10 on the line!! hahaha.. as for the alphaberts tingy, sorry ppl.. no time.. hahhaa.. if lata got online again den add.. hahhaa.. byebye..

the day you went away - M2M
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone

does it matter?

2006-09-27T14:14:00.000+08:00

hai.. finally pcr today got results.. sumore so bright... really sad.. whole holz using either a spoilt taq or dntp.. really sian.. den now must start to chiong arnd 100 samples for 3 pcr tests each.. really kam pua sian.. den worse still when ur fyp grp only 2 ppl when other grps usually hav 3.. sumore tat other one like sai like tat.. wear slippers till get servere warning.. do tings anyhow do, calculate need add how much so simple ting oso do wrong.. sumore juz now same ting again.. i over there doing she go out wif her frens.. worst ting is i dun even really care abt the grade we'r gona get.. report oso.. i kena intro she kena methods.. methods so simple.. den the intro still wan me by tis sunday finish.. abit hard la huh.. i open the msword doc only feel like closing tat programme alr.. how to do?? tml if go gel come out nth again i tink i will juz go toilet n slp la.. wtf.. got a feeling tis sem i go lesson n nv go will hav no diff.. seriously i dun giv a damn wad happening in class.. wad stupid class fund.. need pay another ten bucks.. last sem's ten bucks i tink i the most oso used 5 nia lor.. they keep use it pay for their own ppl's tingy.. y shld i finance such tings?? tink if they keep chasing i'll juz giv five bucks.. n tis five bucks is giv et face den giv one lor.. juz now in lab tink et noe tat i very not happy must pay ten.. i over there keep saying ten abit too much.. pay for barbeque?? who said anyting abt wanting to go for a bbq? did i? nah.. juz to draw the line, i dun c them as my class.. i c them as my buddy class.. so yea.. dun expect too much frm me tis sem.. since after tis sem oso no need c them anymore.. at least sum gay has finally noticed my persistent coldness towards him.. oh well.. feeling really very fark up.. bud hai.. nvm.. let money heal my farkness.. last nite won 1.6 net.. hahaa.. tonite not betting.. sad.. lata munich win i will very sad.. coz nv buy.. hahaha.. evryday i look fwd to gg home n when i reach home, i find myself having nth to do.. well of coz dun include the report n other assignments etc la.. those r juz not motivating enuf.. hahaha.. hai.... gotta go gotta go.. 1130 got epl highlights.. hahha.. seriously i must admit during the past few weeks i watched manu at jeremy hse.. c.ronaldo is really not bad an attacker when he has the ball.. rooney is abit the sad case.. tink he alr on the way down to sum place to rot liao.. maybe gg to manu wasnt tat smart a careerer move.. hahaha

school, work n no more

2006-09-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

Wang Lee Hom Autograph Session
Date: Sunday 1 Oct'06
Venue: Junction 8, Top of the 8, L3
Time: 2.00pm

anyone wana go? nope.. i'm not gg.. or technically u can say i'm gg.. hahaha.. bud i'll be there to earn money.. hopefully nv kena dua by jeremy fren.. haha.. 3hrs crowd control earn 50.. hopefully not too good to be true.. hahaa.. since oso nth to do den go stand arnd take money lor.. hahaa.. so today first day of sch.. abit of wth.. go lesson at 1 den sit awhile mark attendance den go home liao.. went do fyp.. still fcked.. tml gg try pcr again.. tink woo oso tulan tat no results liao.. haha.. den tml got lessons liao.. sian.. hai.. no more.. gone.

i tink i may noe y tis is happening.. bud i'm afraid i'm making a wrong guess.. bud correct or not, if u'r afraid of hurting me, it wont happen. i still wish to b ur fren.. bud i doubt anyting will happen.. coz i noe i wont b doing much more.. the ball is in ur court.. hai.. at least i'm glad tat u din block me.. oh yea i noe.. haha.. take care ba.. u wan those datasheets feel free to get frm me..

okie.. forgot abt tis again.. hahaa.. today's G...

Galvin L** - sgss classmate in upper sec.. very fit guy.. thou not much abt him.. last heard was in CJC.. now shld be NS ba.. haha..

Genevieve O** - my ex.. oh well.. lots of regrets abt tis relationship.. too late for anyting thou.. blah...

Gerald Y*** - sgss classmate.. abit gay.. bud still not gayed till i will condemn tat extent.. haha.. nth much abt him oso.. juz another classmate..

Ginny F** - my quest boss.. hahhaa.. juz her office no.. hahaa

Gladys L** - nchsrcy junior. tis one is one big lian.. hahhaa.. bud ala.. not tat cham actually oso la.. bud aiya.. dunoe wad to say oso.. lata say wrong she c liao i kena whack nxt time i c her.. haha.. lovely gal la.. if the mouth dun open for too long.. hahaha.. definately now more matured den when she went thru her batch's LDC..

Glenn F** - nchsrcy one.. elaine's batch oso.. the only "fulltime" male ba.. den nth much.. juz tat their batch the ppl keep saying we'r brothers.. hahaha.. die man.. so many ppl i like alike wif.. haha..

Guang H** - sgss classmate frm sec1 till 4.. lower sec he was always wif seng.. den upper sec had sum sort of tings happen i tink.. he was more of play bball than play soccer one.. den last sat juz saw him at bh wif his jc frens.. oso nth much to say to him.. juz said a hi nia.. ahhaa..

tats all folks.. bye..

the end of my holz

2006-09-23T10:34:00.000+08:00

so fast 4wks has gone.. n my fyp done = nv done.. coz no results.. end up same as b4 holz.. wth.. like tat shldnt hav bothered to go back n do at all.. ala.. c open sch how la.. i wonder if continue no results till the deadline will how.. hahah.. so all the days b4 go back sch.. den ytd nv go.. afternn went nchs for their crosscountry do fad.. ala.. go there den walk first rnd in the opp direction.. den reach checkpoint 2 there got alot of monkeys.. den the cadets telling me tat px kena attack by monkey den cry.. hahha.. den i look at the monkeys they look at me.. they oso dun dare touch me.. den walk till fabase.. den nth to do so go walk another rnd.. tis time in the actual direction.. walk till half alr wan to die liao.. bud ala.. still must walk one mah.. den continue lor.. den reach the bus stop saw one student sit there.. den no first aider bud got 2 tchers.. so go c lor.. den got abrasion la.. den i anyhow clean for her first.. den cover liao ask her go back finishing point go the fabase again.. coz my box oso not much tings to do properly. sumore so many ppl keep walking pass n look at her.. den walked back den very sian alr.. shagged.. so juz stand there look here n there.. den went back sch.. den wait for the sec3s to waste time finish den go cp.. eat alr den walk to px "old" hse downstair wait for her coz she gg her "new" hse at my hse here mah.. den after tat take lrt walk to her blk den come home liao.. gone la.. no more peaceful days at fernvale.. gotta start avoiding her.. hahhaa.. den reached home bro using com so go slp lor.. lata maybe gg gym la.. abit tired alr.. c how.. after tat still playing soccer.. haha.. most prob tonite coming home slp ba.. coz for the past 4 wkends i got at least one nite not at home.. haha.. either go jeremy hse watch soccer or go yc hse play winning11.. hahaha.. tats abt all.. go yen jiu how to make money via singaporepools liao.. ahaha..

ala.. totally forgot.. wanted to tok abt how u all r treating ym oso.. all of u r alr/abt to be 15.. get IC alr.. yet sumtimes the way u all tink ah.. is totally not ur age.. like wad i told him.. sum of u the attitude/piqi is really cmi.. he is ur peer.. ur squadmate.. frm sec1 till nxt yr.. he is not ur enemy.. he may not be ur best fren bud he is supposed to b ur fren.. even qw when he wif his batch.. he oso may not be the most gum wif evryone.. he can be even worst den ym.. he will juz go up to u n say u'r damn ugly or wadeva.. yet they dun condemn him.. n yet u all keep shooting or rebutting wadeva he says.. yes i noe sumtimes he tend to say tings tat r inappropriate.. bud he is afterall ur peer.. n he is different frm u all in the way of tinking.. he has his own way of tinking.. nvm tat u all cant accept it.. bud at least there's no need to be so critical abt it.. trust me.. when u all graduate frm nchs u all will miss his rantings.. esp if u all end up at sum group which is terrible hardworking n quiet... appreciate him.. he needs fren.. evrybody does.. u all hav ur own grp of frens n buddies.. u tink he has?? all he has left is his peers frm rc n yet tis is how u all treat him.. put urself in his shoes.. he's been pai chi evrywhere he goes.. n even his only source of hope does tat to him too.. tats y i left the room.. n tats y i walked wif him to cp.. i can only hope tat all of u will learn to treat him beta..

i guess the wall is still there, only becoz i m putting it there. - there's a double meaning in tis sentence.. hope u dun understand it.. hahaha

damn forgetful today.. forgot abt the names oso.. hahaha.. today's E.. happy waiting yuching!

Edwin G******* - sgssrcy senior.. he is one hell of a smart ass.. topped the sch for his level can.. sumore all the tchers when i went sec3/4 n they noe i frm rc will start toking abt him.. no they did not mention u, yuching.. hahaha.. now dunoe disappear where alr.. since he left sec sch oso nv c him liao i tink..

Edwin H* - sgss fren... nv same class b4.. not the same cca oso.. haha.. he's npcc one.. den the only ting we shared in common was probably in the fitness club (actually its juz a nice name for TAF or FAT club).. hahaa.. den his bball not bad if i nv rmb wrongly.. nw oso dunoe mia till where liao..

Eileen C*** - my sp yr3 class rep.. pos..

Eileen T** - sp classmate frm yr2 to 3.. blur person.. bud dunoe y sumtimes abit stubborn or insistent.. tat time the fyp tingy.. sad.. tok to her on the fone for 3hrs.. she cry n cry.. in the end frm 3 ppl end up become 2.. sad.. now can alr considered 1.. me.. hahaha.. hai.. now my whole class i tink she's the one tat i will tok to the most alr.. hahaha.. c how it goes la..

Elaine Y** - nchsrcy junior.. actually not much of a junior.. coz when i was in contact wif her batch.. it was more of working tgt for the workshop rather den under me.. so yea.. anway.. she's one matured brain.. thou at times still abit short-tempered.. erm.. tis part is based on the last time tat i saw her for rc.. hahaha.. only rmbed celebrating her 16th bday if i nv rmb wrongly for her early.. hahhaa.. coz she was due for an op on her stomach in the june holz.. den her bday was in july n she was afraid tat she might not be able to celebrate it so i celebrated for her at a few blks frm her home.. hahaha.. thou there was no bday song coz i noe i dun hav a nice voice.. haha..

Elroy C*** - sgss classmate for sec3 n 4.. prefect.. den asst head prefect if i nv rmb wrong.. got 3 or 2 for our batch.. haha.. jaisilan was the other one.. big guy tis one.. abt same size as me.. haha.. den very hardworking.. nth much oso..

Eng T** - cls club one.. den last time i still on tat time will go home wif him n aaron.. coz all nel one..

Enoch L** - cls focamp noe one.. danisco de.. very tall.. i tink slightly taller den me.. hahaa.. skinny oso.. nowadays in sch always c him at fc1. haha..

Eric L** - sp classmate.. nth much abt him.. appear for lessons when he likes.. haha.. bud at least tat time do the cchem assignment wif him he got contribute la.. other den tat nth much..

Esther T** - elaine's batch the chairperson.. nice gal thou i nv tok much wif her.. only rmb evacuating her on a stretcher.. wah i tell u.. the palm pain sia.. hahaha.. sumore tat one was i 1 person carry two handles.. den the others carry the other 2 handles.. wah.. hahhaa.. now oso abit mia liao.. nv c her much for tis past 2yrs.. bud i believe she was well-liked by her juniors..

do F oso la. since 4 only..

Fadhli - cls danisco one.. very nice grpmate to hav.. sure to hav little jokes here n there when wif them.. ahhaa.. den now in sch keep c him wif his motorbike the helmet.. ahhaha..

Farhain - Angela's fyp mate.. rather okie person to "work wif"...

Felix C.K - he's the cat! hahaha.. tis bloody sucker frm indonesia.. hai.. sec 3 joined us.. den he 2yrs b4 tat den started learning chi.. den end up sec3 n 4 he topped the level in chi lar!! kns.. hahhaa.. very nice body n very handsome face.. sec3 tat time abit like jay chou the image.. now change alr.. haha.. bud he's a handsome dude.. dark complexion sumore.. ppl who r alr excited can go frenster n c his profile.. shld be in the f portion of my frens.. hahaha.. very nice fren.. thou now soccer i tink he wont appear so often coz he living at ntu the hostel which is abt half a singapore away frm bh.. hahaha..

Fong C*** - sp classmate for yr2 n 3.. the one n only true soccer fan in my class.. sumore now got car.. bud nv c his car b4.. coz after he n cla broke den he joined the other clique alr.. sad.. hahaha.. bud at times he seems abit of those mai fish one.. u noe.. hahhaa

i guessed so too

2006-09-19T20:38:00.000+08:00

oh well.. tat 30mins by the sea did well.. left my burden by the sea.. anw, its peaceful at ecp during wkdays.. no kids running about. no crowd. juz a few uncles n unders who r all too free n etc.. certainly not tat bad a place for ppl who r feeling down.. sat at the bench. feel the land/sea (forgotten) breeze coming at my face. listening to the music. waiting for the reply tat nv came. tot of a story title called "the tsunami tat nv came" n its storyline. thou i doubt i'll ever start writing abt it.. forgot abt the fyp blues for a moment.. maybe if tml the pcr come up neg again n woo cant do anyting abt it den i will juz leave it as it is n go for my holz heh?? hai.. anw. really felt very different when i walked into ecp n when i left.. hopefully it will last.. n beta stop dropping my hp.. it has restarted on its own for twice today alr.. die.. oh well. tried to arrange mahjong wif nas wh carol n cyn.. bud no more.. they'r not free.. oh ya.. walked frm payalebar mrt to ecp.. frm the usual route i guess.. so long since i walked it. yet i rmbed. i guess i do hav a good memory when it comes to direction n places.. on the way. saw the tennis court. n rmbed abt the tennis game tat nv was.. rmbed alot of tings. bud juz like the tennis game, they nv were... i guess tis is the end. n who said there would b happy endings.. evry story comes to an end.. whether its a sad or a happy ending depends on how each individual deems it to be.. perspective.. tink one or two yrs back i agreed upon a philosophy wif nurul, "evryting has more den one way of being looked at. its the way u look at it tat makes u tink likewise." oh well.. long time since.. n at the bench, looked out to the sea n saw the distant island.. wondered abt last time the ppl if there were there n they saw the images of the islands far away tat i saw, wad would they do.. definately they will be curious to find out wad tat is all abt.. will they swim all tat way out far? or will they rack their brains n build sum sampans or wadeva n sail over to there? b4 i left, i came up wif a philosophy relating to tis, "to noe wad lies ahead, one has to move ahead. it will nv come to u." i guess its the same wif life. we juz hav to move ahead to find out wads ahead. for those who fear knowing wad lies ahead, they run, they hide. at the end of the day, they r still where they were n they r still facing the prospect of knowing wad lies ahead. i guess its probably enuf.. mayb shall do D today. hope not too many names.. hahha.. btw the ** r for privacy of my blog.. dun wan ppl to go typing their names in yahoo or blogger n finding my link N SEEING WAD I SAID ABOUT THEM. well, when i say tis, it probably means those who do not noe of my link, so dun worry, u ppl r safe.. hahaaha.. n i believe tis "hahaha" was the first in the post?? tats a rarity.

Daniel N* - frm sgss i believe.. sec3 n 4 classmates.. nv tok much to him oso.. bud he's a hip guy.. doing break dance n etc wif the others.. hahaha

Daniel T** - sp yr1 classmate.. in the family too.. he's my second wife.. hahaha.. n he's the one who bore the two kids coz the first wife is said to be infertile.. hahaha.. tis is wad u get when its science ppl toking.. others will juz say the guy's a flirt.. hahaha.. sports guy.. yr1 evrytime go his hse play winning eleven wif jx n nas oso.. go clementi stadium there the CRC play pool oso.. memories..

Darius O** - frm pri sch.. was in the LOMOBAT wif me... tats LOcate MOsquito Breeding Area Team.. when i p6 mr herman chose me to be the head coz i was frm his soccer team oso.. ahhaa.. den when the original asst head quitted, darius became the asst head. funny guy who's sporty oso.. bud lost touch after pri sch n since...

Darren C*** - sgss classmate for 4yrs.. one hell of a joker.. bud ala.. frm sec1 fatter den me till sec4 still fatter den me now he alr much thinner liao.. sumore his weight frm 110 now is 70+.. omg.. recently start appearing for soccer again liao.. hahaha.. great fren. always hav sumting to tok wif him abt.. now tats rare for a person like me.. haha.. oh ya.. he joined red cross in sec1 or 2.. i influenced him one.. haha.. bud join less den 1mth he quitted, sumore buy uniform alr.. mad guy.. spend $80+ buy uniform den quit.. ahhaa

Daryl K** - frm sp.. dun really noe him.. juz tat tis juz past sem was in same gems as him n tat siong.. okie la.. bud nth much to tok wif him abt.. hahha

Deborah C*** - nchsrcy junior.. chairperson for her batch.. hardworking n committed person.. was rumoured wif her.. bud well, i hav lots of rumours.. n there's nth frm any rumour..

Derren L** - sgssrcy junior.. abit tut-tut.. bud when sec 2 or sumting kinda wrong company n end up one gangster-wannabe.. bud he's a good person deep down.. even after he gangster-liked he was still the same in rc.. my nice junior.. was sort of my tudi in rc after i passed out.. abit like qw tat type of relationship.. thou useless bud entertaining.. hahaha.. just kidding.. qw dun cry k.. bud yea.. anw now oso lost touch wif him liao...

Desmond s/o V****** - sgssrcy peer.. super tall guy.. abt to reach 2m i believe.. hai.. still rmb sec1 juz start tat time i tallest in my batch.. den got one whole lot of ppl joined after the picking of CCA or sumting.. n he among them!! no more tallest.. den go sec 2 or 3 raj oso grew taller den me!! end up become 3rd tallest nia.. when i'm alr so tall!! ala.. life.. hahha..

Dickson - nchs npcc sir.. frm sp oso.. my batch bud biotech..

Don C*** - sgss classmate.. sec 3 n 4.. sec1 n 2 forgot liao.. bud maybe.. hhaha.. only noe upper sec he was class chairman.. den sec4 juz starting tat time we all trying to be funny.. jeremy say he wan take over don as chair, den darren felix me n others wan the other class committee posts.. den nick chow say canot.. hahaha..

well.. tats all ppl.. bye

never never never

2006-09-18T20:57:00.000+08:00

knew knew knew

life is all about regrets yea.. its always the same ting happening.. late late late..
anyway.. today will continue wif B n C frm my fonebk.. coz B got 2 nia.. hahaha..

Benedict H* - sgssrcy senior.. chairperson when i juz joined.. evrytime wif dennis.. bud they 2 i heard is sec 3 chiong too much den sec 4 slacking.. hahhaa.. den he went over to nchsrcy n probably the first reason for me to appear at nchsrcy ba.. anyway.. last sat juz saw him at the gym.. bud oso nth much to tok to him abt.. hahaa..

Benjamin - cls club ppl.. another soccer lover.. good guy bud nth much abt him coz nv really clicked..

Cai F* - sec 1 classmate.. now oso got play soccer one.. tis guy really grown alot. sec 1 thou he classchairman bud size damn small.. bud he made up for his size thru other attributes ba.. i believe he's now addicted to smoking n drinking.. erm, a good candidate for early death if he doesnt change tat soon.. ahhaha..

Calida W** - cls club ppl.. another frm Danisco.. was the best camper (female) for our FO camp.. now oso alr so call no contact liao... den nth much abt her oso.. juz tat her hair when nv rebond is really very curly.. hahha

Carol L** - my soon frm yr1 class.. very active in evryting.. den last time went airport study overnite wif her.. smart gal.. can go SAJC dun wan.. haha.. den now alr diff course bud still c her once awhile.. i forgot she resembles wad. hahha.. i probably told her b4.. forgotten.. hahhaa

Cedric - cls club ppl. nth much to say abt him.

Charles G** - frm sec sch.. tink is sec 3 onwards classmates.. great guy.. still can rmb we sec3 go cameroon highland wif sch.. me him jeremy n felix.. we 4 damn funny.. sumore i brought yc's PS.. den we at the hotel at nite playing alot of ppl come visit.. ahhaha.. frm band.. thou other den the trip oso not much tok wif him..

Chee R** - my Danisco papa! hahaa.. very tall.. n was cls VP when i yr1.. now in army.. oso nv tok much wif him liao..

Chee W** - sgss schmate.. 4yrs nv once same class.. hahaha.. rich ass.. once in a blue moon appear for soccer thou he stay so near.. haha.. evrytime ask him oso nv reply..

Chen C** - repair my computer one.. my cousin's fren.. bud ala.. dunoe if he got purposely take out some parts frm my com so tat it will spoil n need find him let him earn money not.. hahaha..

Chester T** - my allstar captain.. fit, thin rat.. ph?? hahhaa.. hairstyle oso like change quite alot of times liao.. hahaa.. study hard for ur O la k.. after O find one day go back do obsticle course.. hahaha..

C*** Hui - primary schmate.. last time in pri sch kena bully.. now in SP club oso kena bully.. hahhaa.. bud obviously not by me.. bud still rmb one time in pri sch i go take the rubber band n paper to shoot him.. those damn pain type.. den he sit infront of me mah.. den shoot liao he yelled.. den the tcher sent me down to find mr herman (DM) coz i prefect mah.. den say wan him to strip me of my prefect tie.. hahaha.. end up tis guy run down tell mr herman is he ask me to shoot him one.. joker sia.. good fren la..

C*** Liang - our boss frm the soccer grp.. hahaha.. frm sec1 to sec4 oso nv same class b4.. bud he play soccer the style damn zai.. calm n composed.. sumore tackle ball 95% will win the ball.. ala.. den most memorable abt him is we sec 3 or 4 went watch movie.. den is supposed to be scary one.. den got one scene so call scary bud we all juz watch n keep quiet la.. den went finish tat scene he go say "ouch" as a sound effect.. really very joker.. size quite big den say "ouch".. hahhaa

C*** Seng - ah seng.. sec1 n 2 classmate.. very fast.. soccer very good oso.. bud he sec sch nv join sch team.. hahaha.. den now quite frequent appear for soccer.. bud nowadays keep bring his gf along.. bring along nvm.. she sit there read storybk or watch us play... when evryone can c tat she dun watch soccer one.. hahaha.. den we keep saying his gf is his manager.. anyone wan sign him must approach her. hahhaa..

Christina - sp classmate.. mouth big.. other den tat cant stand her.. hahaha

Christina T** - sp yr1 classmate.. part of our family.. my daugher-in-law.. hahah.. quiet n shy gal.. nv tok much to her for tat 1yr oso la.. hahha

Chrisy C**** - hmm.. tis one is my mei's pri sch classmate.. coz i when my mei p6 noe her mah.. den she intro tis gal n another one to me oso... bud now all oso nv contact one.. my mei oso mia alr.. hahaha..

Clarice C*** - sp classmate frm yr2 to now.. fyp grpmate oso.. hai.. used to be rather close frens.. nowadays abit hard to trust her.. dun wan dwell on tis topic.. den fyp oso lanlan.. tat time b4 start still say scared i make her get lousy grade.. now leh.. keep attitude lecturers.. den wear slippers to lab even after so many reminders.. end up HOD complain to woo den woo come giv her final warning den she start wear shoe.. now alr so sad no results still gg holz for tis wk.. left me ownself do. ala.. anytime i giv up i tink she will die.. hahaha..

Clyve T** - pri sch classmate.. last time used to go his hse.. oso dunoe do wad.. juz noe his hse is those hdb blks bud 2 stories one.. den now oso quite lost touch.. only last yr when all went for andrew's church tat x'mas tingy den met..

Colin - sgssrcy senior.. the ting is when i enter he alr left.. den he oso come back once in a long while nia.. come back oso scold n pump us nia.. yet he can rmb me.. hahaha.. den saw him at sp when i juz entered.. now oso mia liao.. bud he's a nice guy.. thou abit diff wavelength frm me oso.. hahha

Colin W*** - sp yr1 classmate.. nv tok much.. thou we both same GEMs for the 2nd sem.. hahaha.. bud here n there.. okie la..

Cornelius K*** - sgssrcy peer.. small sized kid.. hahaha. bud very fun loving n etc.. thou towards the end he faded out of rcy.. bud still a good peer.. sumore our charlie cheer is he come up wif one.. hahaha.. "who is the best squad, char- char- charlie. who is the best squad, char- char- charlie. charlie charlie char- char-, char kwek tiao, char kwek tiao. kwek tiao kwek tiao, rocky rocky, pia pia, arh arh! charlie, charlie, all the way. we like it here, we like it here, we found ourselves a home. a home, a home sweet home."

Cyndi - cls club one.. nv tok much oso.. bud a frenly gal.. haha.. was nasir's "laopo" during the FO camp we held..

Cynthia S** - pri schmate.. thou i dun rmb her bud rmb her face.. den after tat sp yr1 same class.. den oso in the family.. she's oso my soon.. like carol oso alot of kang tao one.. very busy one.. den yr1 tat time keep chiong work oso.. bud now tink not so enthu in work alr.. hahhaa.. den always alot of tings to say one.. same as carol.. sumore both same bday.. tats y both my soon.. coz they "twins".. hahhaa..

no longer the same

2006-09-17T12:29:00.000+08:00

dun wish to say much.. bud i guess its juz different now.. tings happen, feelings change. so its no longer the same as it was anymore i guess.. goodbye the old u n me n hi the new u n me..
anyway, frm dunoe when onwards i will post those contacts in my hp onto here, of coz without the numbers.. bud juz to describe or tok abt tis frens of mine.. so maybe i shld start today?

we'll do those starting wif A only for today..
Aaron Q*** - sgssrcy junior.. english educated i tink.. n was short n fat in lower sec.. now is big n fat.. bigger den me, fatter den me.. hahha..

Aaron S*** - frm CLS club.. lives at jln kayu there.. last time when i got go club often go home wif him.. den great guy.. was there for me to tok to when i was down a year ago.. thou now no longer as close, bud he's a nice guy...

Alex - frm Quest.. an uncle.. haha.. nice guy.. humourous.. bud nth much to say abt him oso..

Alfiyan - frm CLS FO camp noe one.. DANISCO.. haha.. tats our grp name.. very fun to be wif.. he n fadh** always making fun of kelvin..

Alicia W*** - classmate frm yr2 onwards.. english-pai one.. den oso live very near me.. thou the way of gg home is diff.. haha.. nth much to tok to her abt or tok abt her oso..

Alina N* - nchsrcy junior.. frog.. considered tall among her batch.. still shorter den me.. haha.. acc to YC she's supposed to be considered the most matured in her batch.. i dun disagree, bud neither do i agree.. hahhaa..

Amira - nchsrcy junior oso.. mixed blood.. quite short.. haha.. tis yr O levels..

AMK Town Council - erm.. dun ask me y.. coz my estate is under them.. n dunoe y last time go save their number.. hahaha..

Andrew E* - primary classmate.. was taller den me n fatter den me.. now is much thinner den me the height i tink abt the same.. tink he recently became christian den now very on..

Angela - Woo's other fyp grp the member.. apparently frm my primary sch oso.. bud i dun rmb her.. thou she seems to find me familiar.. hahaha..

Audrey K** - AK.. tok very fast.. hahaa.. nchsrcy junior oso.. den now sumtimes got appear during training wif rh..

okie.. tats all for A.. for the other alphaberts, stay tuned.. hahhaa

weird tings happen

2006-09-16T13:58:00.000+08:00

okie, juz wana tok abt sum strange ting tat happened ytd.. frm SP gg to NCHS tat time, on the mrt got a fone call.. answered n heard a hongkong slang.. den tot is xu hai lou.. end up is dunoe who frm sengkang polyclinic.. calling to ask me abt a feedback tat i gave them.. abit stun la, considering i dun bother to do such tings n worst still is i nv even go visit tat polyclinic b4.. haha.. ala.. wad to do.. nowadays ppl really very bored.. go arnd leaving ur name n handphone no. for feedback.. thou i nv ask tat guy wad the feedback, i do hav an idea it wasnt to praise them one la.. hai.. wad can i say.. juz hav to be careful wif who u giv ur no. to nowadays.. anyway, if tat person/group of people happens to b reading tis (which i guess most probably yes), pls try to be smarter the nxt time round.. in case u (all) are still living in the age of stones n sticks, there's quite a no. of CCTVs available in s'pore now.. especially such government places.. so eh, try using ur very restless brain k? of coz if u (all) tink polyclinic only no thrill, go ahead n try the police post la k.. do note tat s'pore law not fake one la.. hahhaa.. n i do hav an idea of who may be tat free to do such tings la..

2006-09-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

fyp getting sadder n sadder.. lost finale is even worst.. still tot will end... now must wait lost 3.. hahaha.. anyway juz finished putting together a powperpoint for the first aid tingy tml.. dunoe how helpful it will be... juz here to crap.. anyway GPA got 3.271.. cummulative is 3.3 sumting.. hai.. wads the point.. not gg uni oso.. hahaha..

do u noe tat evry sms i send u, i'm actually no longer expecting a reply frm u? mayb tis will make me appreciate the replies.. n yet, sumtimes i juz dunoe wad to reply u, tats y i put dots....

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2006-09-13T09:19:00.000+08:00

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IS1006
INDUSTRIAL TRAINING PROGRAMME - SINGLE SESSION
4
A

BA005B
INTRODUCTION TO ORGANISATIONAL BEHAVIOUR
2
A

CP2045
HAEMATOLOGY 2
5
DIST

CP2034
BLOOD BANKING
4
B+

LC0206
ORAL COMMUNICATION
2
B+

CP2052
INTRODUCTORY PHARMACOLOGY
2
B+

CP2035
HISTOLOGICAL TECHNIQUES
4
C+

CP2046
MEDICAL MICROBIOLOGY A
5
C+

Semester GPA:
3.271

Cumulative GPA:
3.31

a quote

2006-09-12T20:05:00.000+08:00

Ability is what you're capable of doing.
Motivation determines what you do.
Attitude determines how well you it.

enuf is enuf

2006-09-10T15:45:00.000+08:00

i guess i've had enuff.. so many years since msn became part of my life.. n since its integration, i've been glued to my com for way too long.. its time to end tis.. no more.. there's not a need to anymore.. y did i come online in the past?? to stay "contactable" wif others.. so tat i'm juz a click away frm getting contacted.. in the process of doing nth except being online.. i started playing FM/CM while being "away" in msn.. wads the point?? evryting has lost its meaning.. even FM is no longer as fun as it was supposed to be.. y did i opened a blog n start toking abt wad i do evryday?? to help me rmb them?? nah.. it juz so tat others may noe wads happening in my life n not feel so detached frm me.. now? wads the point... hai.. tired.. n i've decided.. for the nxt 1 wk, i will not touch the computer.. i will not come online n i will not blog.. i will not play FM n i will not even on my com.. i noe i will end up doing nth except lying on my bed waiting for bedtime to come n go off to slp.. it doesnt matter.. i hav spent enuf of my life in front of a com, respirating n killing my eyesight... no more.. there's no more need. there's no more desire.. so ppl who tag or wadeva.. plz wait 1wk for me to response.. n others who hav urgent tings to look for me for, try my hp.. of coz if i dun reply probably means i went mad afterway thru the week n decided to off my hp till the end of the week as well.. there's simply no more........................ goodbye EVERYONE.

epl

2006-09-10T12:09:00.000+08:00

ala.. last nite 10 went out go jeremy hse watch epl.. hahhaa.. watched arsenal middlesbrough.. sad la arsenal.. drew.. den liverpool b4 tat oso gone case.. lost 3 nil everton.. tis 2 teams, GONE. den after tat manu vs tottenham.. can say two of my favourite teams in epl liao la.. bud nv really put my heart into watching it la.. coz no longer as attached to epl anymore.. hahaha.. man u won.. if draw jeremy would hav won $80.. hahaha.. coz he bet combo - everton win n manu draw.. joker.. buy wrong sumore one.. hahaha.. den play awhile of street soccer den slp liao.. coz his winning eleven spoil alr.. haha.. den morning wake up come home liao.. tonite gg play soccer if nth changes.. 8 ppl.. abit sad.. bud ala.. wad e hell.. sat darren always missing.. den sun mw canot.. hahhaa.. tink will play wif one leg wear the puma shoe nia.. rite leg dun wan beta.. if not blisters again.. hai.. tml gg back sch again.. zzzzzzzzz...

read tis in the newpaper juz now.. it tok about whether we should sell the naming rights for the new sports hub to the sponsors.. i feel y not.. since singapore the sports scene alr so lack of interest in input.. might as well sell it to sponsors get sum huge lump of money to inject into the sports scene.. if got sell oso 70% end up as Tiger Stadium one la.. hahhaa.. how nice would it be if its called Creative Stadium.. Sim dunoe wad dunoe wad.. r u listening?? hahhaa.. singapore brand sumore earn so much.. share abit la.. the sleague can do wif like 1million to each club u noe?? den u will c alot more beta play in the sleague.. dunoe la.. country head oso like tat wad can we do.. hahhaa..

i can still remember the days when i was young. when i fell n landed on the floor, looking to my mum for help, only to see her telling me this: "zhi ji dei dao zhi ji pa." i guess now i know why she said that, she was just preparing me for the life that i'll be having. thanks mum.

saturday

2006-09-09T20:16:00.000+08:00

my fried rice has no taste.
my head is throbbing.
off to my world of fantasy in FM.
bye.

bball

2006-09-08T15:32:00.000+08:00

juz came back frm nchs there.. went there play bball in the morning wif px, her bro, jamie n hx.. ala.. firstly thank px for asking.. secondly thanks the rest for coming.. lastly i was stunned when px told me got 4 ppl playing.. so little shld cancel alr... hahhaa.. last nite watched lion king 3.. nice show.. coz i roughly still rmb lion king.. den lion king 2 i tink nv watch.. bud tis one is tok abt frm lion king one.. tok abt the two jokers.. not bad la.. anyone wan tat vcd? hahhaa.. tired.. lata tink slping.. ytd frm CP carry tat microwave oven home.. walan eh.. heavy sia.. $139.. 4 kids share buy so called for mama bday present.. hahhaa.. cant tink of wad else to buy liao wad.. ala.. den went wif meimei.. walk frm lrt station to home can kill.. hands totally died.. tml n sunday gg rot again.. mon go back do fyp.. hai.. nxt nxt week will be very free oso.. coz clar gg overseas den tink gg to finish evryting nxt wk.. wad a holz.. blah.. sian.. do u noe tat my inbox is getting emptier n emptier each day? do u noe tat my life no longer evolves arnd anyting? i guess i'll accept tis.. its okie.. only 4 pluz months in poly.. let it revolve arnd gg to sch, fyp n gg home.. when ns comes.. let it be bookin, bookout, soccer?, slp, bookin again.. goodbye la goodbye.. i guess now is a time beta den no other.. hai. thanks for the times.. they are appreciated. take care.

2006-09-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

just wana say
Happy Birthday MAMA!!

kw - stop walking into their trap.. get out b4 its too late..

u - still no news.. i tink i knew tis was coming.. juz didnt noe it would be so soon...

future

2006-09-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

had been tinking of tis topic for quite some time alr.. coz its juz sumting tat cant escape from u when u'r in ur last yr of sch.. or so i tot.. i certainly didnt giv tis topic much tot in sec4.. hahhaa..

so after doing the unthinkable by ending up in a Poly.. now i'm about to get my diploma.. so wad r the choices available for me?? obviously i meant after my national service.. hahaha..

so i can stay in tis line, get a job at the polyclinic, hospital or private labs providing they wan me.. wad does tat brings me to?? a monthly pay of $1500 i suspect.. hmm.. future looks bleak unless i wan a super zzzz n simple life...

nxt, signing on in the army.. 2 yrs ago very much wanted to sign on.. at least i dun hav to worry for the nxt 4 to 5 yrs.. but... wad abt after tat?? n do i really like army life? will i enjoy myself wearing tat uniform evryday for so many days?? i wonder... tis option seems far frm me at the moment.. haha..

oh.. a tcher.. yes i hav tot of being a tcher.. doubt it'll be pri sch.. wan oso be sec sch.. or maybe i'm more suited for pri sch.. hahhaa.. i dunoe.. bud.. a tcher has many responsibilities.. thou satisfying, how will i cope?? pay supposed to be beta now after the recent changes?? hahhaa. ala.. actually i dun hav much big plans la.. pay will juz go towards paying for food n daily expenses n transport.. the rest either giv parents or save up lor.. i dun intend to buy car, dun intend to buy flat, dun intend to open family (or at least so soon).. so really nth much to spend on.. coz now my money oso juz spent on food nia.. hahaha...

the final other option.. continue studying.. VERY VERY unlikely.. firstly, local Uni maybe still affordable for my parents bud my results very cmi.. den go other countries VERY ex.. n i doubt i'm interested in such tings.. n after 10yrs + yet another 3yrs of studying, maybe i've had enuf.. so i doubt tis ranks high enuf in my list...

n of coz not to forget my 2 dreams.. 1 is more of an aspiration den dream.. to be a soccer player.. S league wadeva league nvm.. play "professional" soccer can liao.. bud abit hard la.. fitness cmi.. skills average.. oso nv play for so long alr.. evryting forgotten.. hai.. try hard k.. hahaha.. den the other one is super dream.. disappear n go sum forest n disappear frm evryone's life.. its possible k.. once i've learnt how to let go.. n how my family can accept my disappearance.. hahhaa.. ala.. tats abt all la.. very sick alr.. gg slp liao.. now evry nite slp b4 12.. nth to do.. hai.. my life seems so empty without you, where have you gone?

Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson

2006-09-06T20:47:00.000+08:00

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me how i wish u will learn to trust me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes do u noe how much i yearn to c u cry?
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life show me the true u?
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with let me b ur glue?

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk let me hold ur hand n guide u along
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me i believe i'm old n strong enuf for u to lean on
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain allow me to share ur pain please?
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything i tink i can help
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in giv me the chance to try to enter?
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty let me fill ur life for u?
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you i m doing this right now
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sum tings need a little more effort to be seen. i hope u bother to try.

hai..

2006-09-05T08:45:00.000+08:00

when i put my prev post as "my last", it was meant to be my last post.. yet i'm here yet again.. so let's explain y i bothered to come here..

woke up 30mins ago.. supposed to go to sch do fyp.. bud coz raining den clarice dun wan do so okie lor.. dun go lor..

had a dream.. last till juz b4 i woke up.. its about u, my fren.. its about to be six days since ur return.. n its been about ten days since i last heard anyting from u.. y? i do not noe.. in the dream, i was juz chasing n chasing after u.. hoping u will stop ignoring me n say sumting to me.. perhaps its to mean sumting to me.. maybe its time to let go of ur hands.. maybe its time tat sumone has came n taken ur hand away alr.. once again, i do not noe.. its troubling alrite, noeing u'r there n not replying my smses.. maybe its time to go, i hope its not, but it may be.. i do not noe.. u hav to let me noe.. i guess u probably still come here to read, so tats y i'm here posting all tis here.. i dun wish to be sending an email instead.. it seems kinda dumb.. coz there's a 70% chance tat there'll be no reponse.. wadeva.. i do not noe.. maybe i've fallen for u.. i do not noe... goodbye??

my last

2006-09-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

3 hectic days... fri went out at 2 like tat.. go ps find cyn n wh den go play pool.. den nas came.. after tat play till 7 like tat went find carot den go hard rock cafe liao.. den wait n wait den finally eat till 10 plus.. den left.. no nid pay.. bu hao yi shi.. thanks u 4! den went home.. sat early morning wake up go nchs put radio den go busstop find yc.. den go tabao beehoon go back canteen eat.. den parade.. ~~.... den ceremony.. ~~... den went CP.. den chao home change first n put radio.. den came back eat free food den go to jj hse there liao.. play bball.. nv kick much soccer.. den went jj hse den his mama lompang to hougang mrt den took all the way to boonlay.. go yc hse.. play winning eleven.. den he at nite fall aslp.. den me n jj find new games play.. end up playing street soccer game.. den 4 plus slpt.. morning 8 plus kena woke up by them liao.. den went eat lunch n came home wif jj liao... den keep slping on the trains.. came home slpt.. now wake up eat den fm.. nth else.. wif tat, everyting shall come to an end..

sumting tells me to keep away.. my handphone is nv off for a reason, that is everyone can contact me if they need do. same applies to u. u noe who i m toking abt.. goodbye

ala

2006-08-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

aiya.. forgot to include wad i had wanted to tok abt.. so now back here to type it b4 i go offline..

firstly, happy 15th birthday lindaR.. forget my bday nvm, rmb ur name the "R" is i giv one can liao.. hahaha..

now for the main purpose.. gg to tok about ppl tagging at ppl's blog w/o name yet insults tat person... tis is one issue tat i've seen so many times alr.. last time nchsrcy tagboard oso hav.. n i hav NEVER addressed any of the comments made directly.. wadeva i said was juz like "stop doing such tings" or etc.. coz to me, such tings u response only, make tat person even more happy.. so i'll juz ignore it 99% of the time.. juz like tat day go lindar tagboard reply.. saw tat insult.. din bothered to say anyting abt it.. juz take it as invisible.. its okie if sumone insults n leave their name.. at least can say tat they're sincere abt insulting... hahaha.. bud those fos names probably means u can dun even nid read a 2nd time.. abla.. was supposed to hav much more to say abt tis topic.. bud now all forgotten.. so finished liao..

anw forgot to add tat last thur noon went airport wif sis.. sent her off to england via germany.. the SIA very cute.. overbook the flight den end up tried to ask my sis change flight to nite.. den giv free Fish n Co $15.. hahaha.. sumore if change flight she get 500 cash.. ala.. bud dun hav.. coz they managed to squeeze her into the flight.. bud the $15 still hav.. i really tink SIA too rich.. imagine if they hav to change 10 ppl's flight... tats alr $5000.. can buy 2 laptops!!! hahaha.. abla.. she's now in london.. hav fun sis!!

wheeeeee.....

2006-08-29T18:54:00.000+08:00

okie.. exams over.. had wanted to blog abt my post exams activity ytd ended up play fm till too late.. den now alr no mood to blog abt the events.. juz summarise la.. fri paper end go eat den go nchs den go home.. sat home till evening go bh soccer den go mac den go jeremy hse watch epl n play winning eleven.. den sun noon went home den fm awhile den went yu ching hse.. play winning eleven n still winning eleven till mon came home in afternn.. tats abt all.. haha.. den today go sch do FYP morning till afternn.. tml same ting i guess.. dunoe gg nchs not.. den thur go do fyp again.. fri most prob not gg.. got to go out lunch wif weng hua they all.. dunoe who gg oso... sat nchsrcy pop.. c yu ching gg not.. he go den go tgt.. den sat nite dunoe they playing soccer not.. abla.. nth else to tok abt liao.. gg to play my fm le.. now started new game.. very on.. so byebye..
thailand, thailand, thailand. welcome back.

Welcome To My Life - Simple Plan

2006-08-26T16:50:00.000+08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
(what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
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5114? 5116? nah, those 2 doesnt makes much of a difference. bcoz the one tat mattered......
nxt yr 5000...

tissue paper

2006-08-25T00:42:00.000+08:00

aint supposed to be here.. but on the com to look for sum tings on CNS leukaemia n intrathecal chemotherapy tat i noted i should read up on in my txtbk.. gone.. another 8.5hrs to my last paper.. hai.. haven start memorising anyting.. notes for most spotted topics written alr.. left one.. lata write liao start to memorise le.. hope spot wrong the most one.. if not no more A again.. tml after paper gg to go orchard wif et n cla to eat.. not gg to go nan chiau.. no more.. after tat dunoe doing wad... maybe come home slp.. coz tonite not slping again.. den sat tink gg gym or jeremy hse after tat go bh play soccer.. hmmm.. after arnd 3 to 4 mths break.. finally soccer again.. haha.. hope not too crowded.. den after soccer dunoe gg jeremy hse watch soccer not.. den sunday most prob gg yu ching hse in the afternn till monday.. chiong w11 again.. hahaa.. hope i rmb to transfer him the 200 tml morning.. den nxt wk wed n thur i tink got the fyp blood taking tingy.. oso forgotten liao.. ala.. stressed.. gotta go liao la.. no time le.. byebye...

chalet

2006-08-23T14:59:00.000+08:00

kk.. back from family chalet at aranda.. beside downtown east one.. big.. bud nth to do.. den $150 for 3d2n nia.. so cheap.. tsk tsk.. anyway first nite we played mahjong.. till abt 1 all go slp den i arnd 3 came back wif papa.. to study for my bbank paper on the following afternn.. not bad la.. hiong till like tat.. den ytd noon went kfc eat liao go sch for the exam.. ala.. spot till very sad.. get B liao la.. no more A.. hahhaa.. den went back chalet.. den sis bday mah.. so all her frens coming.. so got buffet.. nah.. din eat much.. more like the slave there.. den went slp for 2hrs like tat at arnd 7pm coz nv slp whole nite mah.. den 9 wake up continue slave awhile den went out at 11 wif meimei to walk.. hahaha.. went pasir ris park, the part beside coasta sands... den alamak.. so dark.. n she so scared.. hahhaa.. we walk abt 15mins turn back liao.. hahhaa.. den go back hide.. den 3 like tat slpt.. till morning 9 den check out come home unpack.. slave again.. den juz now play fm lata hope study.. hahah.. fri last paper.. tink i will end up thur nite chiong again.. bud hope tis time can prepare sum b4 the chionging session.. den wont so stressed... ala.. nth else le..

one bday so many frens come.. hahaha.. my mama asked when i 21 wan not.. i said no.. den she asked will hav so many ppl come not.. hahaha.. aiya.. got 10 can tou siao alr.. hahaha.. abla..

i wished i could do sumting.. almost couldnt suppress the urge to sms u ytd morning... bud i wont do anyting.. coz tat's me.. i wan tings in order.. i dun do tings tat i tink r inappropriate to me.. so nth will be done.. u wont noe tat tis is to u, bud take care..

someday

2006-08-18T23:51:00.000+08:00

so had first paper today.. medmicroA... wad to say.. so fun.. had 2wks to prepare.. end up start on the day b4 ytd.. did abit.. den ytd morning go amk lib chiong.. 10 chiong till 1 den died le.. so came home.. played fm etc n rot n watch tv.. after lost 11 chiong again.. all the way till morning 5 like tat den tired liao.. so shit n bath den go sch for exam liao.. nv slp.. its okie.. poly alot of exams i oso nv slp the nite b4.. always last minute.. guess too slack n unmotivated le.. den the paper spot some correctly.. bud the fungi one gona get zero.. coz nv study anyhow ticum.. choose wrong answer n elaborate oso anyhow.. so zero oso nvm.. tink aim C ba.. anyting above would be a bonus i guess.. dun fail can alr.. fail den no more bursary.. haha.. bbank n haemII.. dunoe how.. mon gg chalet i tink.. den tue afternn paper.. how to die? after paper go back chalet eat buffet.. den fri paper again.. ala.. last minute la.. all aim Cs n Bs.. gone.. nxt tue sis bday.. thur she gg back alr.. gg england work one month first den go back france.. so fast... back for close to two months.. no presents i tink.. had wanted to buy france jersey giv her one.. bud ala. forget it la.. hehe..

maybe i just do not fit in.. maybe its the age gap, maybe its my character.. its okie.. i believe one day i'll find somewhere where i'll feel part of.. where keeping to oneself n having minimial conversations are the norm.. one day, i will.. walk on chun leong.. there's a long way ahead of you.. look back ocassionally but not too often.. time is everything.. let time do the work.. walk on.. hold on in there.. u can make it, alone or not.

To Go After (A Girl Like You) - 50 Clockwise - Saint Gabriel's Secondary

2006-08-16T18:48:00.000+08:00

When our eyes first met
I knew you were the one
The feelings I had for you
Could be compared to none

You are special in my eyes
Your smile warms my heart
Without even saying a word
You light up the dark

*chorus*
But I wish I knew
How to go after you
I wish I had cherished the time
And made up my mind
To go after you
*chorus*

When I saw you last week
My heart ached inside
Should have stopped you while I could
Before you walked away

Well, I had no choice
See, baby, I can explain
It is for your own sake
I don't wanna cause no pain

*chorus*

I just wanna love you, girl
Can we be togther?
Am I not good enough for you?
All I want is the truth

I don't wanna weep
For you were never mine to keep
I just wanna let you know
How much I loved you so

*chorus*

Gabrielites - 50 Clockwise - Saint Gabriel's Secondary

2006-08-16T18:40:00.000+08:00

Time has passed, right before our eyes
It has been fifty years for us
The times we shared, the good and bad
We are still - still going strong

For better times, and stronger minds
To face the world, with all our faith
To build this family of Gabrielites
To serve with all - with all our hearts

*chorus*
Ga-brie-lites, together we are one
We stand proud, coz we're people with hearts
Ga-brie-lites, spirits exclaim
We stand proud, and we never look away
Never alone, if one strays away
Others will bring - bring him home this day
From our hearts, we'll guide each one along
And will never turn away
*chorus*

The teachers we thank, for being there
They are always by our side
For each day, never without a prayer
Giving us - the courage to go on
Our sons are here, and their sons too
We thank God for this school
For this family of Gabrielites
For the light - the light of our lives

*chorus*

Shaping lives, for service to God
Shaping minds, for service to Nation
Standing proud, never be in doubt
Coz we know, you're always out best

Ga-brie-lites, together we are one
We stand proud, coz we're people with hearts
Ga-brie-lites, spirits exclaim
We stand proud, and we never look away
Never alone, if one strays away
Others will bring - bring him home this day
From our hearts, we'll guide each one along
Gabrielites - for we are one

aim low, achieve your goals, avoid disappointment

2006-08-14T00:40:00.000+08:00

nth much.. buy 4d nv win.. $14 gone... should hav bough liverpool beat chelsea.. odds was $3.70 at one point.. ARGHH.. losing money... qingwei my $50 please.. yipchun oso my $50.. i haven forgotten.. hahaha.. stressed.. exams reaching.. haven start.. one day behind schedule already.. going to disappear for a while.. bye people..

hai

2006-08-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

kena fly rocket.. so end up nth to do.. so went to the playground there. sat there to think.. alot to think about. nowadays very xin bu zai yen.. hai.. one yr ago i tot it was bad n wanted to change it.. so i did this did that, what r the results? 5114!! hai.. its pathetic la.. no more nxt yr.. no more.. nxt yr juz make it 5000 can alr.. hundred over dollars, get back twenty cents.. hur.. hai.. forget it.. think too much on my part i guess..

so when thinking.. tot of other things too.. since too much time wad.. i guess i've sorted out what i really want.. no u'r not the one i want.. i doubt u want me either.. hahaa.. bud yea.. there's juz pretty much no chances of me being able to fulfill ur needs of being a taitai.. so ya.. its okie.. i'm still here.. i'll still be there to hold ur hands n bring u up.. when its time to let go i'll still be behind u to support u shld u fall.. we'r good.. anyway.. i guess after one big round i'm still back at here. i tot it was juz sumting tat will blow over.. somehow it hasnt.. maybe a long break will help.. i hope.. coz juz now while thinking i felt tat it wasnt over yet.. i tot it was.. i wanted it to be.. it should be.. bud maybe its not yet.. its okie.. wont mention anymore here.. its inappropriate.. no more..

so went nan chiau juz now in the afternn wif my botak head.. guess probably about evryone except the new security guard at the office was surprised heh? hahaha.. oh well, i said i would cut botak if italy win the world cup.. even thou its one month late, still botak is botak.. haha.. so returned the manikin.. the borrowing n returning of the manikin was done without the knowledge of mr rahim n even most ncos.. no u all should NOT learn from wad i've done.. its WRONG n no one should follow in my footsteps.. i had my reasons for doing wad i did.. i did not want to go thru any of those formalities n therefore decided without letting mr rahim noe, its okie.. if caught, at least i can say tat he wasnt involved n i'll be fully responsible for the act.. ncos to be.. remember this, do what u think is for the best of ur cadets, as long as u r capable of being responsible for any consequences of any accident.. of coz do rmb to spare a tot for ur YO n tchers.. anyway not here to tok about the manikin.. juz to mention tat i wont be coming anymore.. i wont say it was the last time i was in nan chiau.. i may still turn up in the future for random trngs or camps.. bud no, not in the capacity as an instructor anymore. no more.. time has caught up.. time to let go..

from now on evry post may be my last post.. i do not noe when i'll stop blogging or will i open a new blog n post it there n keep it private coz i hav no idea wad i'll do.. tats about all.. goodbye

121st post

2006-08-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

at this very moment, it shall end.

no more blogging. goodbye people.

the end.

hur..

2006-08-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

chun leong, u'r damn bloody useless.

do not compare.

hai.

3 years on.

2006-08-03T00:36:00.000+08:00

firstly, today went bloodbank at outram to 'tour'.. den finished tat time donated blood.. end up only me n wg donate nia.. to be very truthful to all of u who read my blog, it does NOT hurt at all.. no sacarism or anyting, it seriously doesnt hurt coz got local anaesthetic.. so ppl once u've reached 16yrs of age u can print the consent form for ur parents to consent den proceed down to outram park HSA building to donate blood k? very fast one.. arnd 30mins to 45mins nia.. n if u'r 18 or above no need print the consent form.. bring ic or sch ezlink oso for identfication.. hahaha.. n plz weight above 45kg.. yes there's a weight limit.. too thin canot take.. n if they test n find ur blood haemoglobin too low oso canot.. bud juz go try lar.. its meant to save lives..

so 3yrs on now, no amount of regrets can make up for wad i did. no amount of donating blood can make me feel beta for wad i did. i made a mistake. a mistake tat i shldnt hav made. i'm sorry but there's nth i can do to reverse tat mistake. i m indeed very regretful tat i commited tat mistake. hai. its okie. its meant to be part of my life. tis date is meant to be remembered by myself as the date i did someting terribly wrong.

so juz now was reading my classmate's blog. went search the history to look for wad she posted abt wad happened last yr. for those who still do not noe, there was a major conflict last mid july n early aug.. so i guess i aint really wad i tried to let others c myself as.. my jokes n humourous comments maybe dun suit evryone ba. kinda sad. i guess some tings tat she mentioned abt me is true ba. bud at tat point of time all i tot was tat i was juz making it a joke so tat i will not seem so dead n serious to them, and yet i was assumed as arrogant.. to be true, its not the first time others hav said tat i'm arrogant.. i guess i m la.. i'm proud n arrogant.. i like to show off wad i achieved n etc.. yeah its not a desirable trait. bud i guess i lack the self-discipline to keep all tis in mind. if i were to be gg thru evryting tat i wana say in my mind b4 i eventually say, i'll really be limited to very little words n take a long time to speak.. n to those tat i dun really treat as fren, i dun bother to tok crap wif them. i juz keep quiet n really tink alot of the consequences b4 i open my mouth.. i really dun wish to be doing such tings wif ppl i consider to be okie wif my style n end up making others fed up.. of the 3 i tot she was the one i could probably click the best. the other i tot she was the one tat i could speak of all kinds of tings wif n wif trust. the last one was n is still one whom i cant accept coz of her behavior n attitude.. the one i trusted wasnt to be trusted.. the one i tot i clicked well wif is the one wif the most hatred for me.. seriously there's alot for me to reflect about now.. no doubt the posts could hav been when she was fuming mad n feeling all so angry about.. it might not be rationally correct or wad.. bud so did i tot tat they were at fault when i was really down n out at tat period.. maybe its juz the emotions.. really have to reflect.. really.. maybe i shld go copy paste down wad she typed n save in my com so tat i can from time to time remind myself of wad others had tot of me.. i m a person who is VERY concerned wif wad others tink of me. i care alot about comments and critisms... i find it hard to swallow my pride n keep my achievements to myself.. i m seriously one hell of a failure in terms of character.. i m a "da nan ren" (chavanistic?) n i m very inflexble wif the way tings work... i love to tell others tat i'm talented n so on.. u tink i really tink so?? hur.. i juz say coz i feel tat it makes me seem humourous, n yet i guess evryone tinks i'm more arrogant den humourous wif tat comment.. maybe shutting up i the best option for me.. no comments, no misunderstandings, no interpreting of my character, best of all no need to socialise n entertain ppl... really seriously wondering if my current handling of the situation is correct.. i condemns her, i cant stand her character n attitude anymore, and yet i hav to continue to work wif her for at least another 4 months.. i dunoe how long i can last bud i very much doubt it will last till the end.. bud i guess sooner or lata she will oso cant stand me for keep showing attitude problem n ignoring her n she'll go join her "new" clique.. go la go la.. make me look odd la.. kick out from one clique, join another clique.. den tis clique evry sem one member less.. less den now gg to left me alone here den the other 4 juz now appear as a "new" clique.. haha.. joke.. maybe i shld juz live in isolation sumday.. i guess the days in st gabs didnt help much to my social life eh.. primary sch alr so dun tok to others.. den sec sch oso nv tok much only to soccer frens.. den now poly after yr1 seriously gg to hav no1 to tok to anymore.. nadia i understand ur efforts bud its juz weird la.. for me to go join u all now or nxt sem.. 3 cliques in 2yrs.. if someone told me tat i'll seriously tink tat guy has a big problem.. hahaha.. defer sch?? dun tink its an option.. no financial backing.. hahaha.. wad else can i do? oh i can always isolate wad... it isnt tat difficult.. n i can be training for my jungle days if i do end up achieving my dream of gg off to some jungle to live there.. haha.. hai.. its a long struggle till the end of poly... i noe i aint in the worst situations, bud do noe tat i understand its not easy at all...

wif tat i shall end here.. pretty lot of comments of myself.. as for the ting i did 3yrs ago, do not ask me wad it is.. coz u all will not like to noe it.. juz ignore tat portion k.. hahaha.. goodbye people. goodbye frens.

going, going, gone.

2006-08-01T19:12:00.000+08:00

okie.. so i've moved. congrats to those who hav made it here by tis time. hahaha.. anyway just to kick tings off, lets tok about y i moved.. there's not much of a reason actually.. i juz felt like moving.. tot the doyouwantmyhelp tingy was rather the corny.. so moved.. hahhaha.. oh well.. i may move again or i may set up another one tat will be private.. coz there r certainly alot of tings tat i do not say out here... enuf about moving...

so haven been updating tis past wk or so abt the tings i've done.. i've mostly forgotten thou.. hahhaa.. hai.. fyp is one fcking pos.. do wif a mf nvm.. still must keep redoing coz cant get the pcr to be proper.. HAI.. heck.. nxt wk thur n fri go back sch do since i so free.. hahhaa.. exams coming.. 18th, 22nd n 25th.. gone.. heard tat day tat papa book chalet on 21st n 22nd for sister bday.. ala.. how to go?? hahaha.. den 24th she gg to england alr.. tink not gg to send her off tis time le.. nxt day got EXAM lar.. hahhaa.. holidays do wad?? more or less fyp whole day den teach qw once or twice a week n rot ba.. nxt tue got OC presentation den either wed or thur gg cut hair ba.. like i said, i will cut botak.. who ask italy win world cup.. sumore now so many footballers oso botak lar.. even FERNANDO TORRES oso botak le.. copycat sia.. copy my cannavaro.. hai.. lampard i tink oso botak.. mourinho oso botak.. hahhaa.. gg join them.. oh ya.. holz got to really start excerising n losing weight.. coz botak den wear wad oso fat.. den sumore NS another half a yr nia.. gone.. den dunoe la.. stupid class.. ytd ask them donate blood abt half ran off say need do OC presentation.. hai.. end up get 6 tubes nia.. gone.. dunoe how la.. still short of at least 34 more samples.. yr3s disappointing.. get arnd 20 so far nia lar.. hai.. bud the angela n farhain wan nxt sem den take blood again.. mad.. how to finish so many pcr n gels in 2wks when we now alr having problem wif the pcr n gel?? hai.. HAI... c how la...

today is the 1st of aug.. tis friday is the 4th of aug.. if they r having trng most probably will b gg down.. got impt mission oso.. den after tat nxt wk or when gotta complete my impt mission den after tat most probably not gona appear le.. sec3s hopefully u all can maintain wadeva i've started wif alpha.. coz no quality for awhile still nvm.. must at least let them dun feel tat they'r wasting their time at the trngs... all the best ba.. n seriously for wad posts u all will be getting, i hav no idea.. its no longer my world, i no longer decide anyting.. so hope all of u can accept wadeva decision is made n push forth the unit.. hopefully by now its no longer a case of "me, myself n my friends".. it shld be all about the unit...

wad else.. of coz there's sumting else.. bud i will not comment about tis.. coz like i said.. there r juz sum tings i cant post here.. hai.. 1 yr has past.. time for another round of reflection.. gona be busy.. tml got gems quiz n gg bloodbank at outram.. most probably will donate blood if asked.. hahhaa.. den fri got bloodbanking quiz.. nxt tue OC ppt.. following fri medmicroA exams.. den the nxt mon n fri got papers.. hai.. army army where r u??

be goal oriented.. tats wad i keep seeing in my gems notes.. hahhaa.. wads my current goal?? to go NS.. wads my long term goal?? to hav a goal.. hahaha.. tis is obviously copied from yu ching's "my dream is to hav a dream".. well.. i had many dreams.. i still hav one.. bud goals may be achieved bud dreams do not come true.. heh.. tats abt all la.. enjoy my new address ppl!! its a privellege to be here.. hahahhaa